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Veneration of the Dark Godis is Veneration of the Whole Wombn. Our Power is in Darkness, but first wo-men have to leave our patriarchal conditioning behind - leave the father's house and his rules! Embrace the Way of the Womb!
This "anger" that is the THEME of my work is Righteous! Words can be so misleading and "anger" is perceived as it is due to counter spiritual definition. Therefore, the mere mention of "anger" paints a picture that has been impressed on our minds as something volatile and hostile... but if one can get on the other side of that, we are reminded that this energy is our fire, and this fire is our very source. Do not allow this in any way to be diminished. Anger is a POWERFUL agent of change! Am i always angry? No! Do i like, go around and kick old ladies? Hell no! Do i go around spitting on men? No. I actually completely ignore men. These days? They don't have access to me unless they are driving the taxi. My Anger isn't constant. As has been evidenced here and on our show, Deva is a damn goof!! I am silly and playful and a prankster! But i recognize the power of Anger and Outrage as transformative Spiritual Initiations. The flaring of anger or indignation is an Initiation on our Dark Night/Knight of the Soul Journey. When i began my journey? I was frightened of my anger. I tried to repress it and pretend it wasnt there. Whenever it did show, i was met with rapid reprimand from other women. And being raised in an abusive household, raised to be an obedient child, and expected to remain that way eternally; I was willing to give up my right, to appease them. This is no more. "You may write me down in history This is my very favorite poem by Dr. Maya Angelou. It is the first of her works that found me. I remember, holding that poem in my hands. And thinking to myself; "God sent you just for me!" This is my Mantra: Still I Rise! Never to give up, never to give in! ;) I embrace my anger, my rage, my love, my gentleness, my patience and impatience, my fears and my dreams. I go running to all the things we arent supposed to say or do, because I know i can Survive. Fear kills more dreams than failure, my former fear of my anger? Was killing my dreams, it was siphoning my energy, it was destructive to my psyche and my soul. I dare you: Release your fear of the ANGER! I love the dark Goddess because she taught me that death is only the beginning. That death is not final, that death and destruction means creation and rebirthing. With Death comes the renewal and refreshing. We are borne again through this Dark Night/Knight of the soul. I often think the problem for black women is:
This is a strategic attempt to silence black women; because black women are Creators and our Creator energy is a powerful arbiter of change. The result is a Cowardly Lion disposition, all roar and no bite.
This is a good question.
![]() When we do not express ourselves, we impress those feelings. These things manifest in poor diet, poor outlook and poor disposition. We tolerate less than we deserve because we no longer value ourselves. We cannot value who we are, when we repress our anger. This isnt spiritual or righteous, in fact there is nothing righteous about repression. Let us give back this mythos of "turning the other cheek." The Art of Getting Even is practiced by everyone. Except black women.
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Intuitive Eating: Reject the Diet Mentality. Throw out the diet books and magazine articles that offer you false hope of losing weight quickly, easily, and permanently. Get angry at the lies that have led you to feel as if you were a failure every time a new diet stopped working and you gained back all of the weight. If you allow even one small hope to linger that a new and better diet might be lurking around the corner, it will prevent you from being free to rediscover Intuitive Eating. Honor Your Hunger. Keep your body biologically fed with adequate energy and carbohydrates. Otherwise you can trigger a primal drive to overeat. Once you reach the moment of excessive hunger, all intentions of moderate, conscious eating are fleeting and irrelevant. Learning to honor this first biological signal sets the stage for re-building trust with yourself and food. Make Peace with Food. Call a truce, stop the food fight! Give yourself unconditional permission to eat. If you tell yourself that you can’t or shouldn’t have a particular food, it can lead to intense feelings of deprivation that build into uncontrollable cravings and, often, bingeing When you finally “give-in” to your forbidden food, eating will be experienced with such intensity, it usually results in Last Supper overeating, and overwhelming guilt. Challenge the Food Police. Scream a loud “NO” to thoughts in your head that declare you’re “good” for eating under 1000 calories or “bad” because you ate a piece of chocolate cake. The Food Police monitor the unreasonable rules that dieting has created . The police station is housed deep in your psyche, and its loud speaker shouts negative barbs, hopeless phrases, and guilt-provoking indictments. Chasing the Food Police away is a critical step in returning to Intuitive Eating. Respect Your Fullness. Listen for the body signals that tell you that you are no longer hungry. Observe the signs that show that you’re comfortably full. Pause in the middle of a meal or food and ask yourself how the food tastes, and what is your current fullness level? Discover the Satisfaction Factor. The Japanese have the wisdom to promote pleasure as one of their goals of healthy living In our fury to be thin and healthy, we often overlook one of the most basic gifts of existence—the pleasure and satisfaction that can be found in the eating experience. When you eat what you really want, in an environment that is inviting and conducive, the pleasure you derive will be a powerful force in helping you feel satisfied and content. By providing this experience for yourself, you will find that it takes much less food to decide you’ve had “enough”. Honor Your Feelings Without Using Food. Find ways to comfort , nurture, distract, and resolve your issues without using food. Anxiety, loneliness, boredom, anger are emotions we all experience throughout life. Each has its own trigger, and each has its own appeasement. Food won’t fix any of these feelings. It may comfort for the short term, distract from the pain, or even numb you into a food hangover. But food won’t solve the problem. If anything, eating for an emotional hunger will only make you feel worse in the long run. You’ll ultimately have to deal with the source of the emotion, as well as the discomfort of overeating. Respect Your Body. Accept your genetic blueprint. Just as a person with a shoe size of eight would not expect to realistically squeeze into a size six, it is equally as futile (and uncomfortable) to have the same expectation with body size. But mostly, respect your body, so you can feel better about who you are. It’s hard to reject the diet mentality if you are unrealistic and overly critical about your body shape. Exercise—Feel the Difference. Forget militant exercise. Just get active and feel the difference. Shift your focus to how it feels to move your body, rather than the calorie burning effect of exercise. If you focus on how you feel from working out, such as energized, it can make the difference between rolling out of bed for a brisk morning walk or hitting the snooze alarm. If when you wake up, your only goal is to lose weight, it’s usually not a motivating factor in that moment of time. Honor Your Health—Gentle Nutrition. Make food choices that honor your health and tastebuds while making you feel well. Remember that you don’t have to eat a perfect diet to be healthy. You will not suddenly get a nutrient deficiency or gain weight from one snack, one meal, or one day of eating. It’s what you eat consistently over time that matters, progress not perfection is what counts #HextoHeal #DarkProse #HealingTheDivineDarkMasculineWithin I never, in my personal life, have had an example of a black man protecting black women and children without his dick being involved. He has to be screwing the woman to offer her any protection. Or screwing one of her children... I know too many black girls now adult women who were the trade-off for the "protection" of a man in the home. I have never in my life been protected by a black man. Nor defended by a black man when his brothers have assaulted me. No black man has even gotten me justice or restitution. No black man has presented himself as someone interested in Healing and restoring the Womb and Wombn. Oh they all SAY they love their sisters. They CLAIM they love black women. But they SHOUT OVER you with their defensiveness and "not all men" fuckery. They speak condescendingly to us "sorry YOU had such negative experiences with the men you associate with but I'm not him and I don't know anyone like that" is an example of this. This is male speak for blame the woman, silence the woman, shame the woman, verbally assault and shock the woman into a frenzy state so we can sit back blameless. This is what men do. This is how men respond to women and even to womens pain. Which is why i advocate women not sharing their stories in places where men are allowed a voice. The male voice is perpetually one of abuse and blame and shame of the Feminine and female. It is the sole purpose of the Diminished Masculine; to keep the Divine Feminine small enough to fit into his patriarchal world. The Divine Feminine must be reduced to Wounded Feminine for this to occur and be possible. So black males wound black women to keep us small enough to fit in the grand scheme of this present global social structure of Male on top. With black males warring for space at the top or at least at the feet of white men. This has colored my vision from infancy to present. As the only way i have ever experienced black men, the primary manifestation i have seen in black men is as violent, rapist abusers of black women and black girls. I have seen far more sadistic black men than "good black men" retorts can excuse away. And of course this is "my problem" alone and no black male is responsible to me to correct this or to heal it. They LOVE their sisters, they LOVE black women but they aren't responsible for "the males we 'choose' to associate with." As if 'choice' is a factor in the abuse of women and girls? As if i 'picked' the leering adult males when i was but a girl. As if men haven't been waging a war on women's RIGHT to a choice in her life since the inception of patriarchy. No black male owes his mothers, sisters, daughters the Divine Rite of Healing and Protection. Even in a thriving functioning patriarchal and patrifocal structure males are not accountable for the healing and restoration of women. To say otherwise is to "man bash" yet should not man be BASHED THE FUCK INTO PIECES for what he has done and allowed to occur? I am openly acknowledging that the black males horrific rape and abuse of me in my lifetime has absolutely impaired my connection to the Dark Divine Masculine. And as i do yet another work alone as a Wombn and Feminine, i understand the resentments, pains, and even RAGE i will experience are valid. These energy emanations are necessary to release, to receive the bounty that is Mine. I had to process my deep hatred of black men in specific; to process my deep love of my Internal Dark Masculine self. Lay blame where it rests and do not internalize it. We absolutely have a right to be angry and to hate the very face of the people who have harmed us and sought to destroy us. This is what REAL HEALING looks like. If you cannot HEX you will never HEAL. Before there was Ever a Heavenly Father... There was the Great Darkness Upon the Deep. Without Form, this Great Darkness emanated from a point of 0. Self Begotten in the form of She, the Great Darkness Upon the Deep, became the Great Darkness in-Between. Self begotten in the form of She, The Great Darkness in-Between was a Wondrous Magnificent Creator. Self Begotten in the form of She, the Great Darkness in-Between Created a Light of Divine Heat, an ember of her Flame lit the skies a million times. Self Begotten in the form of She, the Great Darkness in-Between became the Great Dark Mother. For of her Womb came the Divine Spark of the Galaxies. Each Galaxy was a Great Darkness Upon the Deep. Self Begotten in the form of She, the Great Dark Mother witnessed her Many Dawtas creating Dawta Galaxies. Harmoniously they Vibed in the Great Sea of She. Self Begotten in the form of She, the Great Dark Mother witnessed some Dawtas creating a new thing... They sang "Hail Hail! The Sun of God in the Highest! The Most Brilliant Thing! Hail Hail the Heavenly Host Proclaim This Sun of God Supreme in all the Realms. For by his Light, from Darkness we are Free!" Self Begotten in the form of She, the Great Dark Mother repented her Creation. Weeping great Waves of tears, Heaving Thunderous Wails, her Light became Electric Whips of Power. Shifting and changing the Cosmos; the Great Dark Mother Raged and Stormed, her Pains were felt in every place. And to this day, each time it rains, She Whispers to me: Remember. Dawta. Remember Me.
#MammytoMamiWata #TheBlacksAreMale #TheWomenAreWhite Women aren't weak for wanting a male companion. But we MUSNT let our wanting make us weak and needy. i check that shyt in myself too. We have to Stand in Power, even as a mate. This is the reason i do not endorse this Viola Davis wig less in the bedroom scenes. I don't like seeing Annalise tell Sam "i need you" and stand in a space of lack in her THRONE ROOM! This representation has been rubbing me the wrong way so much, i haven't kept up with the show. The message being sent is clear, Black Woman be the CAPTAIN and CHAMPION in the Courtroom, the Law a Class, The Realm of Legality. Sit on the Divine Throne of Judgment in your Work life. But lay down and be a carpet in your bedroom. Lay down and be a hump rag in your bedroom. I cannot endorse that. I cannot endorse that Black women approach relating to men with or through emotion anymore. Because men do NOT meet you with emotion or approach relation to you in honor of your emotions. How can they? Their very righteous complaint is that they are "oppressed" because they have to be strong and not show emotion. This is something we Share as Black Women with the male population. And the reason we Black Women have a SHARED oppression space with male people is that BLACK WOMEN ARE REGARDED AS MEN and not as women. We are regarded as Masculine and not as Feminine. We are expected to be the Boss everywhere and as such, no one knows how to respond to our pain. This is where the shared space ends with men. When a man yelps he might be ridiculed by the bros... But the broads will swoon. When a Black Woman Yelps? No. One. Cares. To. Answer. For this reason, i do not find women "weak" for wanting male companionship. For even needing male companionship. Because Black women DESERVE AND DESIRE to feel like women. I had a meeting with a maid service yesterday. All these anxieties came up... "Is it wrong to hire someone? I can just do this myself. So what i am bogged down with a million other projects... My mama cleaned her house." That is what snapped me out of it. I realized, no. Mama did NOT clean her house. In fact, mama had us to rely on as maids. Which means i have been:
For 20 years. At this point, i am seeking to outsource some of my labor needs so i can enjoy my life better. The guilt we have of FEELING FEMININE and honoring our Feminine is astounding. The hold ups between Looking down your body, seeing two magnificent breasts, a curvy waist line and your GLORIOUS VAGINA but being regarded as, expected to, required to act as if you are anything But a Tender, Delicate, Rich, Valuable, Goddess is hell. It is time to bridge the gap from Mammy to Mami-Wata. Breeding in Captivity: Daughter's aid and Help is not a Replacement for Male Duties to the Family11/3/2014 One thing elder bw DID teach me: If u have babies; you are all by yourself even married. Its what i saw all around me. I also was told this on several occasions. Most of which were replies to my bitching about being expected to babysit for free lmfao Married women who were single mommies. Women in relationships with men who were single mommies. Wouldn't be so bad if they had nannies. But the black community doesn't need nannies when the eldest daughter can be leaned on to help mama cope with her poor decision to breed with low caste maledom. Hence the phrase "women raise their daughters and love their sons." Most often? She simply raises her daughters to be her replacement workforce. They exist, simply, to make her life easier as a domestic slave and broodmare for her "husband" aka herder. YES, I called it out! Black women get their daughters to aid them in making the load of their poor decision making, lighter. Its sad and needs to stop. This is exactly what was done to me, so this is actually my "realm of experience" to discuss. (directed at the cattle who try to silence.) It is not on your eldest child to help u care for the fruit of your sexual pleasure! Don't breed till u can afford a nanny. Or be God enough to do it alone. We need competency tests prior to breeding. Like u need a license to possess and operate ur car... Good credit to be qualified for a home. Good work ethic to keep ya job?
You should have to pass a breeders examination for mental spiritual financial and emotional fitness. But then.... There would be no slave class to do the menial labor for the big wigs. It is a systemic pandemic. And the beat goes on. Our choice to mother deserves more than this. So much more. Hence why i got's none... zero children. Its a HUGE job! And not one u can quit or transfer! It is a thankless job, that requires a ton of self sacrifice. It saddens me, to hear women discuss the unfairness of 4 legged animals in zoos. Yet watch them flat out refuse to see how we are all in the Zoo, and women are nothing more than Cattle in this realm. A Tree Grows in Brooklyn by Betty SmithAngry Deva's Radio Show: Kang Babies 2 Find Additional Radio Podcasts with Triple DarkGodis Radio on BlogTalkRadio I first read these pages in 5th grade. I was quite young when i realized that women are natural enemies to one another within male society. That it is other women, not men, who make life harder for young mothers, for young women who buck the societal norm of their mothers. For women who refuse to be boxed in. The Angry Devas 6 Statements of the |
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