#ToxicMasculinity

"Dress the way you want to be addressed." This is presently the male response and reaction to women's requests to be regarded as human, vs a series of holes that exist just for men to penetrate.
It would appear that, in our case as black women, black men fully recognize their right to exist and not be deemed thugs or dangerous based on their clothing choices. However, when we make requests of them to show the same courtesy, they are unable to hear us and proceed to suggest "logical" reasons why their refusal to listen is valid. Among these "logical reasons" are "don't dangle meat in front of dogs and be mad when they bite" or "don't wear a Ho's attire" or "you must have wanted the attention" and other such "pearls of wisdom." These men believe, unfoundedly, that they are noble in telling us to "cover up." Louis Farrakhan was recently heralded as a "real man" for offering "protection from the NOI" to Beyonce, after Florida police refused to do detail work for her concerts. However, he had also just recently given an edict to Jay-Z to "tell his wife to cover up!" Interesting intersection there.

Science has proven that males are incapable of actually hearing the female voice and taking her seriously.

Men apparently would rather "listen" to the "energy" our outfits emit than the energy of our voices saying no, I'm not interested.

What I find to be most intriguing; our foremothers and forefathers were well dressed, yet made to suffer gross indignities in this nation. Martin Luther King was wearing a suit and tie when he was murdered/lynched. Malcolm X was wearing a suit and tie when he was murdered/lynched. Countless black women and men in suits and looong dresses were turned into strange fruit all around this nation.

Therefore, I posit, that in addition to a genetic inability to hear and process the far more complex feminine voice, male culture itself is desirous of stagnation. The Diminished Masculine's perpetual and cross racial inability to review history and adapt/reform, means we are doomed to remain trapped in a never ending story of collusion with oppression and citation of attire and other presentations as "the reason" it has happened.

(Sidebar: I'm not surprised by Farrakhan! The man still rocks Brooks Brothers suits and Stacey Addams shoes! He still got that conc, he will never change lol)


It is an unfortunate reality that far too many of these toxic and diminished masculine are out there. We need to learn how to recognize them, what are the signs and symptoms of the Diminished Masculine. Only then can we begin to alleviate this sickness, that seeks to keep the Divine Feminine wounded, in our interpersonal lives. Unfortunately, I do not believe that men en masse can or will be changing this of their own volition any time soon.

It is not on your eldest child to help u care for the fruit of your sexual pleasure!  Don't breed till u can afford a nanny. Or be God enough to do it alone. We need competency tests prior to breeding. Like u need a license to possess and operate ur car... Good credit to be qualified for a home. Good work ethic to keep ya job?

You should have to pass a breeders examination for mental spiritual financial and emotional fitness. But then.... There would be no slave class to do the menial labor for the big wigs.  It is a systemic pandemic. And the beat goes on. 

Our choice to mother deserves more than this. So much more. Hence why i got's none... zero children. Its a HUGE job! And not one u can quit or transfer! It is a thankless job, that requires a ton of self sacrifice.

It saddens me, to hear women discuss the unfairness of 4 legged animals in zoos. Yet watch them flat out refuse to see how we are all in the Zoo, and women are nothing more than Cattle in this realm. 

#SovereignWombnhood

#BlackPeopleRewardMediocrity

#BlackCommunityFailureTraps

Baby mamas often have more privileges afforded to them than Women who were smart enough not to breed. I remember being a junior in high school and Massachusetts had this program where welfare mothers got free cars if they jumped through this or that hoop. I remember saying "here i am. Smarter than these baby mamas, more savvy, greater intelligence. I am in college, i didnt throw my life away on the fuck games men play. But these women get cars for being foolish whores and i have to figure it all out myself. Why do we reward the most lazy, shiftless, undeserving wenches? And leave the Smart women to languish." 18 year old Deva was a real tough cookie. Ouch.

Flash forward a year later, i am working full time and going to school. Because my baby mama sister was allowed to stay home and raise her child. And i HAD to leave the home and work to get to school. No financial support to the daughter who actually was doing something more than being a black mans hump rag. I couldnt even get my mother to sign the damn FAFSA. Which i needed since i was still under the age of federal majority. The Federal requirements to qualify for being an Independent Student Back in 2006 were:

• You are over the age of 24
• You are married
• You have a child of your own
• You are a ward of the state or orphaned.

Otherwise? You need your parents to submit their information and your financial aid award is based on their financial accomplishments. my mother bred with a bum bastard addict so, there was no one but her to turn to for help or with needs like this one. My mother REFUSED to submit simple tax information for my FAFSA. Now we arent talking about co-signing loans or anything big, just tax ID info. She refused to simply hand me the info to plug in myself! I was willing to do the data entry, she wasnt willing to grant me access to college. But she was willing to play grandma-baby-daddy and housed my baby mama sister, helped that fool with paying for everything for my niece. which meant i had to apply for private loans to go to college, anyone who did time in the "higher education system" knows these loans are more risky and cost higher in interest etc.

My mother grew up in a community of black women that devalued black womanhood outside of its capacity to be a broodmare; then abandoned those women when they accepted/succumbed to their predestined fate. Black womanhood isnt allowed to be ambitious and savvy until after she has busted out 2+ children. Then we say "yeah girl! Go on to school! Get yo degree on!" But if she does so BEFORE being reduced to some mans hump rag and broodmare? She is a bitch, selfish, evil, hates children etc. we basically bully black women into mediocrity. Then judge them when they land there. We privilege, aid, support, endorse the most foolish decisions and punish the wisest ones. And these black women lurk everywhere. Its not just your mama and auntie. It is the BWE, the metaphysical community, and the magical community as well. Well populated with b-lack women who mule and encourage a permanent posture of black community mule as the default position of black womanhood.

Oh. And my mama? Well to this day she sees no problem with having beaten into my head "get pregnant you are on your own" while coddling my idiot sister who was hot in the ass and wouldn't listen to Sound Wisdom much less apply it. It is no secret that i am Gifted as a Clairvoyant and I openly Embrace being The Controversial Oracle. My sister was forewarned and ignored the warning. She became pregnant 2-4 weeks after i warned her about her boyfriend. Everyone in the family knew, she still got and gets the support. And she, like most baby mamas, deserves none of it.

Why do black mothers punish daughters for success or wanting to succeed and reward the failures (the baby mamas)?

Jealousy.

Yes. It is black mothers jealousy that her daughter didnt repeat her stupidity. Oh black mamas say do better. But they punish you when you do. And they privilege the foolish siblings and hand them what should be going to you. My mentor says: "help is always given to those who do not need it." Which tells me, spiritually, baby mamas don't need help. If they did neeeeedddd it? They certainly wouldn't receive it! Usually it is those who do not need assistance who are granted said assistance.

Anyway, it was during this time period that this one 40 (FORTY) year old baby mama on my job would always try to argue with me (she found Devas back in da day Blog lol) about how unfair my beliefs were. It isnt fair to say that women with children are poor only because they were foolish and had babies they couldn't afford. It isnt fair to say that women can and must control their own pussy and fertility. I was the "privileged" one, she balked. It was me who had the easy life, she balked. Yes. Baby mamas pride themselves on being a mule. They also assume that women who were wiser and didnt breed have "easy lives" or "no problems." I just never understood why women who sport-fuck their way into obscurity should be rewarded or helped at all? What makes your value greater than someone who doesnt have babies attached to their womanhood, sexuality, identity and worldview? Why is motherhood the default privileged position afforded to women no matter how degraded (baby mama) the form of motherhood is? You ruined your own life. Why do you deserve any consideration? Why weren't you thinking about these things before you decided to let one slip past the goalie?

It especially bothered me, as a teen, how women get sympathy for being willing baby mamas. When women who are victims of harsh crimes and experiences get shamed. I never understood that. Still don't. The baby mama on my job kept saying "its divisive to think this way." Honeybee, we are always divided. My tax dollars feed your children and and keep the heat on in your house.What is more divisive than you getting to be an absolute fool, and also having access to benefits i dont qualify for, but that i am expected and forced to fund and supply for the enjoyment of you and your children?

I remember having to choose between having heat in BOSTON during winter and having my books for school. While the baby mamas of Boston got fuel assistance and the gas company by designation of the LAW cannot cut her power because of her children. Are women who breed some how more worthy of humanity and consideration than women who were smarter and didn't? Do women who have been broodmares deserve heat more than women who have not? Do women who are broodmares deserve college assistance while the smart women who didn't sport fuck herself into neediness does not? The entire system would seem to be established that way. To reward mediocrity and willful stupidity, over ambition, drive and tenacity.

This has been true for far too long. I have always said, remove the aid from baby mama access and the baby mamas population will reduce itself. My mother insisted that i know that getting myself knocked up meant i could no longer live with her. That reality was so ugly, so beneath my worth and value; I wouldnt even sexually engage men, because i knew what happened next.  I knew my value was greater than being some mans baby mama broodmare. My life had a greater value than welfare lines, family court and Struggle. When women know they can get knocked up by some mongrel and go stand in a line for a few benefits? They will. If they knew they had absolutely NO SUPPORT AT ALL to look forward to? They would be smarter.

Lets all celebrate ourselves and look at all the foolish women as an example of what not to be. To all my Far Wiser sisters who are child free? I salute you. I privilege you, i value you above all. Because you are not a burden to the image and style of black womanhood. Lets not repeat their mistakes. Once a woman has let a man impregnate her? Its all over but the crying, she is mostly trapped between her dreams of family and her present nightmare of single mamadom. Dont let that foolish woman be you.

This is the dominant narrative, the predominant picture and description afforded to black women. Of all women on the planet, our rage, our hate, our disgust, our outrage is the most feared, policed, dismissed, of all women on the planet. When we are OUTRAGED, you can bet your bottom dollar there will be someone out there defining it. Your outrage, enrage, anger, pain, lived-experiences themselves are already named, judged, dismissed and ignored. Both by society at large:

It is nearly impossible to approach black women about things that upset you. Double it if what you find to be troublesome, is something SHE is engaged in as a lifestyle. She will defend, to the death, her right to continue on as she is. She will, frankly, name the ways that her choices have manifested ill in her life. She will also, viciously, defend her right to carry on at the expense of women and girls.

One thing I have experienced in the last year is this concept of the "ma-sun" being preached by black women. I witnessed a comment a few months back on a video featuring Busta Rhymes, where he went to africa, hugged a black woman and kissed her, he shed a tear and said its good to be home. He shared some pretty heartfelt, deep seeming, expressions. The kinds of things that black women with sons crave to hear, or even black women who have been abused or maligned by black men. Suddenly, the women were shouting, praising the Great Mother and calling him a "Ma-Sun returned home."

No one should be shocked to learn it disgusted me, and that I spoke on it. I found those women to be foolish, this man can make millions of dollars selling black women's image to the world for his profit, kiss one black womans face and suddenly he is redeemed? This is all it takes for the horrors that men have subjected women to, to be absolved? A black man need merely be videotaped speaking 6 kind words about one black woman to absolve his lifetime of disrespect, for his profiting from rap(e) culture, for sport-fuckin-thru-women, female degradation for male empowerment/culture/rap and more. 

When I pointed out that he had done NOTHING redemption worthy, or absolution worthy, much less had he atoned for shyt he has done.... the attack was on me. I was the evil, bitter, black man hater who simply needed to get some "healing." This seemingly is the full depth of black women's analytic ability. Much less an ability to engage in a cogent discourse about our own Divine Right to Name and set precedents.  Even we black women have learned to tune one another out, to dismiss and reject, as valid, the expression or experience of our sisteren. Oh we TALK a good game about "sisterhood" but we certainly don't often back it up. 

But not all women are DOING the work! Often times, those with the greatest passion, also are warring great battles. We see this, we judge it (jealousy, bitterness, anger, immaturity, just to name a few) and package it away. In our lives, in the lives of one another, we have to be so careful! Everyone you see is fighting a great battle. Even you, yourself, are fighting a great battle; we wake up daily at war with forces/people/situations/doubts/fears/health-issues.

This makes it very difficult to reach across that isle. One thing I make very clear, during my speaking engagements, on the Angry Deva's Radio show, and in my Private Work with sisters, is:

Our rage is our power. This is untapped power, in our lives. Many black women are depressed and in poor health, simply because they have endured for too long, in silence. We are so tailored, so in need of being contained and appearing to be "fine" that we are busting at the seams.

In my life? It was fear of what other people, other black women, might say about me. This fear of the judgment of others impedes our growth. Learning to embrace our darkness? Owning all those spaces that others have judged in you?

This is the key to healing and the reason i began the Priestess of In-Formation 1 on 1 Mentoring sessions. Womens expression are policed, and then women are judged by the words they say or dont say. In a global culture of religious supremacy, no one is practicing what they preach. Why are women being judged or condemned here in America, if there is No Condemnation Or Jusgment of others permitted in the "christian faith" that allegedly "gave birth" to this nation?

Why must women "behave" well for the faux "promised land" of a cease fire of male sexual terrorism? Why must women "love men" when men, as a cohort, express global hatred for women and girls? In my Priestess of In-Formation Mentoring Sessions, we discuss these things. As well we explore:

The reason i do this? Is because women are still, for all our alleged freedoms of speech and movement, under attack! Our expressions are attacked, our right to express ourselves, the articulation of our thoughts and more. I have recently been subject to heinous attacks by mothers of sons. Why?

For the simple act of admitting that there is no value in birthing men. And that they are kidding themselves to believe that rebirthing man is a worth while prospect! I was informed i shouldn't talk about it! Because i am not a mother. See how so we cease being cows in patriarchy, when no one can wake us up!? What the hell tells them that they can speak on gay marriage and a litany of other topics they themselves have absolutely no worldview on by realm of "personal experience." I forgot, they have dickism to back up their, inherently patriarchal, need to pontificate regurgitated jizzm.

Do you really think, for one second, that these "sons" are your golden ticket? Oh honey, that's funny! For thousands of centuries they have been the bane of our existence. How quickly we forget logic and wisdom for the all too fe-male emotional, illogic and screaming fits that are preferred by privileged women when being challenged by women of less (or no) privilege over them. Hell i was even informed; by the mothers of sons, that they will win this war they waged against womanhood. And they are right, because so long as women birth men, unchecked, girls will be raped. And as long as girls and women are raped, mothers of sons win! I wish i were making this up... But yes on the open air i was told by mothers of sons that they would win the war against us and that their sons would fuck us all up! This, (male sexual terrorism) unfortunately, is what they mean.

Their ultimate goal is to be god through their son. Due to an ill fated believe that they are nothing without him. And this ill fated belief, this antiquated mythos, has permeated our culture. So now these men feel entitled to our girls, and their mothers are always right there, explaining their right to do so. Their sons are god and in control of all things. Including the cattle excuse me, the women.

Something we all need to be aware of:

The bearer of the Womb is the Sun of mama or the Ma-Sun.

The Angry Deva's have done an entire series on the Wounds we inherit as daughters in a thriving and functioning Patriarchy. This series was inspired by Womb of Light and their insightful work around healing the wounds of our mothers. Be Inspired and Edified by our work, as well as your own. 

All women have endured this mother wound in some way or another. 

Today's broadcast of Angry Deva's brought in a classic case of "white man b*tchism." The "willie lynch nigga" who came into our chatroom today with his "gripe" against feminism came to divide. When Black Wo-men cease allowing men of any race and creed to dance all through their threads, blogs, fan pages, and radio shows, perhaps we can build something that causes Socio-Political change in OUR favor. However, more often than not, black men believe that they should come in, speak and be heard. Black women, too often, are accomodating and make room for them and everyone else. The Angry Deva does not. Period. 

I am not here for your feelings, for your opinions on our movements either. I don't particularly give a shyt what men think of femnism, black feminism, radical feminism, black radical separatist feminism or really anything. Men need to concern themselves with the complete eradication of:

• Rape as a tool of social, political, educational and biological warfare and control of Female Sovereignty.
• Domestic Violence
• The abuse of Women in the media for the titilation of the male gaze
• the constant erasure of females and the Feminine from all spheres and realms of TRUTH and VALIDITY. From religion, to politics, to the media itself as arms of patriarchal dominance.
• black male prison recidivism 
• black male sexual, political, community TERRORISM against other blacks.

Until we see men making moves on these fronts, and others, i truly could care less about their concerns and views. We have been made to listen to men pontificate, regurgitate and out right obfuscate TRUTH and fiction for centuries. Men of all races. 

Black Wombn, as we are the MOTHERS of the Globe, it will be OUR resistance that offers the GREATEST change to the powers that be. This is why we are consistently being divided against self-preservation and self-worth as well as self-esteem. NOTE the key word here is self. When we re-turn to self-centered focus and reaffirm our Rightful Position as God, Priest, Oracle, Shaman, Healer of the globe, as the ORIGINAL MOTHER, the entire WORLD will return to Order from Chaos.

Angry Deva's Radio Show
The White Man B*tch pt 1

This page, this movement, it isnt for the "women over 30." Its already too late for most of you. You have already been carved up by patriarchy and your loyalties divided. It isnt for women who have children either. Doesnt mean you cannot be present or helpful, but this isnt for you nor toward you.

If it isnt already abundantly clear, because adults are simply over grown children, this message is not for the bleating sheep of patriarchy! No one is trying to wake you fools up! I want you asleep, ignorant and out the way. If the Patriarchy has its loyal Cows it will not chase us all down and Lock us up in baby factories. No need when the breeder class is eager to exist in perpetual poverty of mind, body and spirit. (SARK)

No!

This message is for the women under 30. Those of us who still have a shot at this life without struggle and having to mammy. We who are tired of the typical black-tholic religified ways of trapping black women. We are over being the broodmares for nothing ass (black) men! We are over the expectation that we hold ourselves "chaste" and pure for men who are worth less than chewed up bubble gum!

This is for the daughters. And truth be told, given the way this world is: all of you over 30 are the anti-black-daughter. You, like the men, would be perfectly happy to watch us all go down. Then ever be the aid in some women escaping the hell you exist in, and attempt to privilege as normal or "god-like". Struggle aint cute, being a black mans baby mama aint cute, letting some nothing ass man pump your belly full of his genetic waste material aint cute.

Every generation of women before Ours has failed us all. They have failed to stop womanhood from being mere cattle of patriarchy and in patriarchy. Each generation of women married or were mothers for free. No black woman has told you:

• Charge these men for babies before he hits the skins
• Marriage is nothing more than a business, make a good deal
• If the highest "rite of passage" for women is to be purchased by a man (marriage) branded by him (name change) then become his broodmare and domestic slave (mother of his children) there is no value to being a woman.

No one except me the Angry Deva. Most of these women over 30 and more often those closer to 40 have been in this trap so long, we who believe in freedom sound crazy. Be ware of these older black women they have an invested interest in keeping you in the trap with a dick between ya lips. Especially a black woman with a son. She isnt really thinking about you or about helping you. Her interest?

Is in shaping the cows her son will stud, milk and breed later in life. Dont be his cash cow!

Do not fall for the okie doke.

And if ur over 30 and take issue: you are the problem. Thank you for exposing yourself.

Published 8/10/2013

Source Skylarkspirit.com

I challenge conventional ideals about certain spiritual laws and certain applications of the same. I do it because I have seen how it is wrong and inaccurate. How it manifests despair and lack in the lives of those who are unaware. Have you ever given your very best effort to make a situation clear and bring it into harmony; only to have the other party(ies) continue to act an ass?

Does that mean your vibration is off? That your vibration isn't loving enough to magically make others loving too?  Or is it evidence that no matter your best effort, some are intent to remain stuck, hateful and evil?

I'm up early, just back from meditation/trance and considering these things based on what i saw. If i lose fans for this... oh well! I don't believe in feeding fear or pretending that something faulty is functional. You are free to leave, the message is not for you yet. And when it is you are free to return humbly and with honor.

The truth is, not all are going to ascend. Many will be stuck in the 3rd dimensional "reality." And you WILL encounter these people. The raising of the Vibration is a gift to those who have done their work. And brings gifts to the same. We must invest in ourSelf.  I liken it to Neo in the Matrix... When he first went back in to see the Oracle... And as they were driving through "his old neighborhood" simulation, all the familiar places, he realized, were a part of an illusion he once believed himself to belong to. Before he awakened to Oneness Within.

Yea... Its exactly like that. Morpheus said to Neo: if you're not us you're them. Pointing out that "agents" of the matrix mind prison could be anyone anywhere. At anytime! The people still plugged in.... They cant be any different right now. Wisdom is realizing that and protecting yourself.

If we cannot be good stewards over the FEW why do we deserve the more? We must be diligent in our efforts to keep our vibration intact and not go into the Matrix. Do not expect unawakened people to get it or understand your new gifts/life/self. Its terribly difficult for them but you deserve to go for self. It is the reason i say: Vanity is Salvation! focus on yourself! Do your work!

Ignorance... It is not bliss; It is the cause of all misery!

I have said it before... and I stand by it regardless:

MOTHERS OF SONS are the enemy of women's (individual and collective) growth and development. Because the investment is always going to be in maintaining what we know. The thing I am learning, though, is that this is how it was intended to be. Because some of us just don't WANT to be mothers. Some of us see it as a TRAP.

But the DOMINANT narrative, the privileged voice, is that of the mother. Double it if she has a son. 

Forever, the daughter is tortured, questioned, expected to conform, to pretend that the truth isn't what it is. Her attempts to unpack the patriarchy will FOREVER BE UPENDED by the mothers of male children. She will be shouted at by females, quoted dickist-theories written by dickist males, and what recourse does she have? In a global system that has blotted out the female voice and presence from every science, every field of study, every single field of operation PERIOD for hundreds of years... WHAT pray tell, does the Daughter Have in her arsenal against a patriarchal faux matriarchy that attempts to en-culture her to uphold the status quo?

Your guess is as good as mine. Black women HATE feminism and believe its existence to be a threat to their men and sons... so What Language, what Recourse, What TRUTH does she have but her own?

Which has already been invalidated if she:

• Doesn't fuck men
• Doesn't verbally suck men off
• Refuses to privilege the women who birth them
• Consistently pushes the truth about heterosex
• Puts in our face how rape impacts women
• Puts in our face how women's reactions to Male Sexual Terrorism impacts and impedes female live and vitality
• Attempts to explore how the Penis, which is a weapon of Massive Destruction, can in fact return to the Divining Rod Mother Created it to be?

Moreover, if every single woman who reads the blog, or listens to the show (I'm personalizing this here on purpose) fails to question HER OWN SELF and own her own emotional baggage, how can the conversation ever really come into being a productive one? How do we get to the TRUTH that man ain't shyt and the Masculine and Feminine Gynergies are what we need be striving to attain, when we cannot identify the bullshit we do that impedes that growth? That swell?

It isn't only men who seek to snatch a Wombn's wings from her, before she can get them. I find that mothers of male children also do this. Their behavior is to remain unchecked, or else "burn the witch who dares to identify the inherent problems in our practices." Its "you cannot speak about motherhood if you aren't a mother" instead of "i don't want to hear your thoughts on motherhood because you aren't a mother." Cannot have that, it would require that folks be responsible for their own projections.

So when I say, to we sovereign daughters, YOU HAVE TO FIGHT and you cannot EVER view a mother of a son as your friend and ally? When I say that the PATRIARCHY (which really means women who want men to exist and be in power) wants to turn us all into their CATTLE, this is exactly what I am talking about.

YOU SHUT YOUR MOUTH (daughter) SO THAT MOTHER CAN CONTINUE HER FUKKRY unchecked. And it manifests in many different ways, all the time. I expect it, I do not say this shyt JUST to sound nice. MY LIVED EXPERIENCE has showed me that the women who have SONS are your ENEMY when you are a girl child. They will attack you, defame you, lie, slander, libel, justify their sons actions and more.

I learned this at age 9. When I was 9 years old, after having been chased by boys for early puberty, I was beaten to the ground in elementary school. The boys attempted to feel me up. Enraged, my parents went to my school to have a meeting with the Principle and the mothers of those 5 boys. Their mothers?

"Well what do you expect? Look at her chest! At least my son ain't gay"

I knew THEN, when I was merely in 4th grade, that MOTHERS of men are not protectors of girls. This also helped me realize that my mother had a greater chance of protecting us, because she had not been given a son to birth! She would be MORE invested in protecting us from men, of informing us of who men are and what they do, because her loyalties weren't Divided. She fought for me, she wrestled those women, verbally and energetically, for my right to experience puberty without some son feeling me up and hurting me. She, and my father, stood by me through that. When I began blaming myself, I remember my father telling me it wasn't my fault and that some women shouldn't have been permitted to birth sons. 

This sparked a thought in my head.... a thought about why some women have sons, some do not. It also prompted me to NEVER want a son. I have experienced, along the way, many women who simply DO NOT DESIRE a son. There are also women, who presently have sons, who never wanted a son. Never wanted ANY CHILDREN AT ALL, but they have sons. I remember the first time I said to another woman "I least of all want male children" and didn't have to deal with her emotional baggage. It was the single most FREEING experience for me, for my inner-daughter. See, when I said to my mama "well i don't wanna have no boys" my mama retorted "well they aren't all like that, you might be different" and at first? I agreed with her. I thought, in my arrogant egoic way, I will be different. I will raise a better son.

Overtime? I came to see that as a SLAP IN THE FACE of every single woman before me who had a son. Every woman who worked her ass off, tried her best, cried to sleep at night over her son; I had just said they merely didn't try hard enough. I didn't see that at first, My declaration wasn't intended to slight other mothers. But it was. It was a statement against the way that sons have turned out, which held MOTHERS responsible for their behaviors. The Mothers only responsibility, and this is my RESOUNDING message, is in birthing him. No matter how she raises him, he still has to contend with society and learn. Many women are WILLING to let men bump around as they please saying whatever the fuck they please.

But our daughters? We definitely do not extend that courtesy. We want the daughters to take lashes we don't even ISSUE to sons, for their thoughts, expressions, formation of concepts and ideas and more. We take ISSUE with women's expressions, women's bodies, women's EXISTENCE period. 

I have learned, its best to learn FOR YOU vs AT YOU. 

Those mothers of sons? Their vitriol was AT ME, not for me, in that moment. Yet, any GOOD alchemist can take what is meant for their Bad and turn it to their Good. This is recognized God Power. 

The attempts of the daughter to articulate her thoughts, experiences and more will ALWAYS be systematically SHUT DOWN by mothers. More specifically, mothers of male children. When this ceases to be true, according to my own lived experiences, I will happily cease saying it. The truth of the matter is, "I was Given this World, I didn't make it!" ~Tupac 

This goes into FEMALE Privilege (mothers voices, experiences and views privileged above child-free women) that impedes female interactions and relationships. When you have a hyper sensitive female, who hasn't yet mastered the For you vs At You concept, it makes it double difficult. 

This (inability to discern for you vs at you) is something I am striving to improve in my life. Can't we all though? <3

I just shared an article to my page about how men are socialized to talk over women. And view women as emotional and talkative. Even though they always dominate the convo and topic. Then, had yet another "you hate black men" experience with a whining overgrown BOY! 

He, by virtue of being a nothing-ass-man mentally, cannot read with comprehension. All he hears is: "kill black men. Fuck black men. Murder em!" He hasn't heard or read in this case one single thing that was written. All he hears is "these women are angry and hate black men"

And because his dick is black, he personalized it. And then it became about what he is and is not doing as proof that black men as a cohort are "better than that."Black men, like white men, want the privileges afforded them for being male thus an individual, and the benefits of collective efforts of women. Yet they do not want the responsibility of the collective. 

If "we" really were about unity? For every word i said about black women needing to stop having sons (or any children at all) would be received with praises. But black men dont want our community or family to improve. They want to be on top via us living on our knees. In fact, the only time our mouth is desired to be open is when we are on our knees in front of them. So they can "feel" like a man. This is how we "let a man be a man" and "let a man lead"

We must only fellate him. Verbal blow jobs, cyber blow jobs too. To the point that men we dont even KNOW are expectant of us blowing them and all men, for their fragile ego. This is fb. Why should i "respect" black men as a collective HERE when black men as a collective are a FAILURE!

He didnt hear (or read for that matter) me say: black women arent raising anything worth dating/fucking/relating thus should Cease the production of male children. Until black men do some work to improve the family. They bitch moan and complain. If we have babies we welfare and child support ho's. If we abort or simply KEEP FROM BEING IMPREGNATED by male genetic waste materials... We are murderous haters of the black community. 

All in all?

The black man, and his dick sucking cheerleader black woman, would rather see us all DIE than do something to change how things are going. And fuck em all! I aint going down with the ship! This is not the fuckin titanic!

#AngryDevas
#Humpday
#FeelinMyself

How can black women respect black men?

What land do they own? What have they done for our people in the last 40 years!? How many abandoned homes have black men created? How many times have black men beaten, raped, neglected and abandoned black women?  Whenever we have a problem!? We have to call the white supremacist military and police force for help. Why should black men be respected? Why do black women continue to have sons then complain about black men?

If black women really loved ourselves? We would stop birthing for black men. We would make them pay for the babies they leave for dead, before his ass hit the skins. Black women need to stop having sons. Bm do hate bw and don't see the problem, because of that hatred. They will forever make excuses, say "not all men" and more. The black family is jacked up. And the black man is the effect. 

The cause is black women birthing him.

Lemme tell you something about "loyalty"

To these over grown man-children, "loyalty" means you tolerate all that i do. And ya like it. 

It means, lock your sexuality away when i go to jail, to play rectal ranger games wit da fellas. It means, dont have sex with someone else even though i am a he-whore. It means, if you do express Sovereign Expression of your Sexuality as YOUR OWN, i wil l call you a whore/slut/bad-woman/bad-mother etc. 

It means, cow-tow to what MEN have historically defined a "good girl" to be. Or a "good woman" or "wife material" which basically means, his secured watering hole. So he can go play his game of 9th hole, sexually. 

It means that as long as women are sharing themselves with men, sexually, men will feel entitled to control of it. Whether its "you should fuck the beta man or he will kill you" or "you need to be celibate till marriage" or "you have children, oh well. Pussy dead!"

All of this BULLSHYT is designed to keep MEN from:

And so long as we women continue to sexually service men (all sexuality expressed towards or involving men is inherently patriarchal complicity, unfortunately. We don't gotta like the truth, ts still true. WOMEN'S SEXUAL EXPRESSIONS WITH MEN is female endorsement of male supremacy, abuse and tyranny.) the problem will only grow worse. 

The expectation of female sexual submission, sexual servicing, sexual gratification of male ego, desire and definition of sex is, LITERALLY killing us. 

Wake up!

#tabootuesday
#angrydevas

Is it possible, when black women are refusing to be accountable for what they do? I have had falling outs with black women SIMPLY for correcting their vampirism. It immediately became an attack against ME for my tone in checking her ass. There is a vampiritic thief out there now, mad at me because i told her YOU are out of line. Many women DO NOT WANT TO BE CORRECTED or ACCOUNTABLE for their lack or failure. Black women are the WORST at this. 

All these black christian women? you are out of order. You are CURSED and this is why black women FAIL. you cannot SERVE TWO MASTERS!

Black woman: CUT THE PHALLUS OUT OF YOUR LIFE and go with THE TRUE LIVING GOD, then be BLESSED by the Most High Highest vs cursed for living your life.

Listen to this WISE CRONE! Her Teachings are ON POINT, ya ain't gotta like it.

I decided to delve DEEP into #controversy here. A***trigger warning*** to the racially sensitive, this is a piece that is meant to be a shocker and to provoke analytic thought. This is a call to the Black Womb to divest from that which is NOT in her best interest. This is a call to the Black Womb to realize her great power as a Woman and to NOT deny her greatness to appease the wounded hyper-masculines within our cohort.  I wrote this in generalizations because it was easier, not because I am unaware or too stupid to understand what a generalization is and that they do not always apply to the all.  It is NOT your average piece of writing on race by the black woman. It is designed to piss you off and get you to thinking. I anticipate your angry gossip, angry comments and complete denials. I know who you are and what your go to knee-jerk reactions are when it comes to black accountability for what is in our scope of power and access to control and change. I decided to view you as CAPABLE and SOVEREIGN and not as the slave-class we been encouraged to be.



With that said I firmly believe that the Black Womb is the God of the universe! Science has proven that the entire human species originates out of Africa and the Mitochondrial DNA Genome has been here on the planet for thousands of years before the Y-Chromosomal pattern was created by, you guessed it, the Black Womb. Via Channeling I was able to gather that we Dawta's (the galaxy) didn't always utilize sexual alchemy (or fuck) on our suns to create them. I am thankful to Spirit for that message... The GALAXY or the DAWTA gives birth to/creates the SUN or SON. Let those that have an ear hear! 

As such, and with all of this in mind:

If black people are the ORIGINAL creators of life. and if there be NOTHING new under the sun... all we do has already been done...

then MISOGYNY, RACISM, CLASSISM AND MORE are BLACK INVENTIONS gone rogue and wild (because we no longer control them en masse). If the Black man is the father of civilization, and many of you hold this to be the truth, and the black woman is its mother, WE CREATED THIS SHIT!

ALLLLLLLL OF IT! even and especially that shit we HATE is in existence. 

I remember... being one of those race women who blame ALL black harms, horrors and issues on white folks. I thank Goddess for growing up. We can cite slavery, apartheid, global disenfranchisement ALL THE LIVE LONG DAY for all the ills of black society. and RIGHTEOUSLY SO! We can say that black men are abusive, black woman hating deadbeats on account of picking up the euro man all the live long day. 

But I ask you: what about those 56 women raped hourly in the congo, that they know of there's only 56 per hr, who are not black american with the black american slave legacy? and they will say that it is colonialism that did it. 

and I will ask: what about the FACT that africans SOLD THEIR OWN to the white man? as proof that WE CREATED THE SAME SYSTEM WE HATE and abhor, and they will say that slavery in africa was different than what white people did. you will hear about chattle slavery and other regurgitated soundbites on race relations.

And I will ask them about the 3 black/brown men who RAPED and murdered Quiana Jenkins, the WIFE of Marine Jan Pawel Pietrzak eventually killing him after making him watch them rape his wife, for being married to a white man? The same of which, after raping that woman, killing her husband via one shot to the head and then killing her with a double shot to the back of the head, wrote "nigger lover" on their bedroom wall. And they will use denial, excuses, the media, statistical tampering and more to say that those violent rapist murder's of OUR sister and her husband were innocent. (A jury sentenced 2 of them to death and one to life in jail without parole in June.) We will say it was that the man did something to them.. not that this couple was PUNISHED for their choice to LOVE one another.

and the blame will keep going BACK to white folks. This leaves no room for us to examine the ways in which we DO have the power to make choices that serve our highest good and best interest. which says, to me, that black people collectively when it is convenient for us, endorse the willful enslaving of our Divine Will, individual/collective Choice Power and Birth Rite to global white supremacy. How so? 

ANY SOVEREIGN PERSON OR GROUP will be seeking to HEAL and harmonize their cohort. not find JUSTIFICATION, based on historics, economics and virtual access, for their dysfunctional, self defeating behaviors, attitudes, practices, beliefs and cultural adaptations. 

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When I was a child, my cohort and I were accused of "thinking we were white." For me, it was on account of my vernacular, diction and the articulation of my thoughts. Even though, then, I was the most RADICAL MILITANT PRO-BLACK SISTA EVER, rockin the fro and all lol, I was too white for them. I read books, I didn't fuck around and I was serious about my studies. (serious about my studies meaning, i liked to learn. school sucked majorly and taught us nothing so BOOKS and writing became my best friends). I was NOT the best student in grade school, i was bored out of my mind and didn't see an end of that until College. But that, reading and enjoying learning, is what "white" kids do. My own cousins would say "auntie's kids think they white" because of how we carried ourselves. When my sisters and I made it through our teen years without being "knocked up" by black men (focus on black men here because we are black women) we REALLY thought we were white and too good and better than everyone else who had fallen victim to the okey-doke. 

These are just a few of the ways that the dysfunctional black cohort attempts to police those trying to do better into acceptance of sub-par bullshit.   I would enter debates and disputes all the time with people, attempting to help them see how they have taken every gross white supremacist ideal of blackness and applied it as the very embodiment of black. so black women can't read and be black... we gotta be tryina be white. black women cannot speak the "kings english," we tryina be white. black WOMEN cannot decide to reserve their sexual enjoyment for worthy partners... we tryina be white and what chu tryina say about the brothers? and it goes on and on this horrible denigration of Black Sovereignty and Black Will Power BY and AGAINST black women. 

Historically, and presently, black people are oppressed. Yep, "black dude" in the white house and all, our lives (as a collective) are NOT anything like those of the blacks over on Pennsylvania ave. Our oppression's as black women (and I am addressing black women primarily in my writings as I believe in the Sisterhood) are multi-faceted and intersecting. The legacy of slavery, the implications and IMPACT that has had on the collective black psyche will NEVER be explored, honored or even considered by the dominant narrative. We have wasted centuries of effort, energy and capital trying to get the dominant narrative to change. And in 2013 people, BLACK PEOPLE even, are STILL espousing horrifically racist views of African's in the Diaspora. I saw a black woman say that Alek Wek had GORILLA features and as such was NOT as beautiful as european featured Beyonce, just 2 days ago. It didn't shock me or surprise me. I expected to hear that from a black woman about her own reflection. THAT is whats disgusting... the EXPECTATION that black women espouse and embody the same racist sexism they LAMENT, is disgusting and a clear sign of someone who has been around too long and seen too much. 

In July 2013 an Italian Senate VP (a white male named Roberto Caldroni) came under fire for likening the nations FIRST Black Female Cabinet Minister to an orangutan. 

These anti black female attitudes have swept our planet and been fueled by and large by our own brothers. Our disconnect from our Black Origins and Black Godis power has borked our concept of community. We were NEVER a viral people the way that the dominant culture has become. On the contrary, we were always communal. We see the great issue with trying to be communal within a virus. Colonization itself was, I have seen, the result of our collective inability or disinterest at organization within a collective. We either saw no merit to a collective, or failed to successfully establish an hegemony that SERVES the interest of blacks throughout the diaspora. As it stands, our own brothers themselves see no value in the community or the Womb's who birth it. I identify their divorce from the yin/feminine/Godis as the endorsement of yang/hyper-masculine/patri-male-god usurpation of our position. They, as the fathers of civilization and creation, have created this anti-black female sentiment and have since endorsed it for their own financial gain and ends, black females be damned!

and so my POINT here is... when is the excuse and blame going to be done with? when are we going to INTROSPECT and get to the ROOT of the problem, vs all this fraudulent cord cutting we have been doing around racialized sexism and sexualized racism? 

Because, as it stands, the blaming of the white man for all the ills of black people, the ills of black men against black women, has gotten us no where. It has gotten us into a dis-empowered state within collective global disenfranchisement. It has gotten us programs designed to keep us dependent on the dominant culture and narrative. It has NOT gotten us greater harmony nor community. Black males still run rampant in crime based activities in our communities with no regard to the mothers and children there. Black males are still shooting up our neighborhoods and sending our sons, and dawtas, to early graves with impunity. and Black women are permitting them to do so and enabling the maintenance of "thug" culture as the identity of black maleness at large with impunity. 

The consistent blaming of the white man has not done thing ONE to improve our lot, change our circumstances, improve the way our sons view our daughters and improve relations between our God's and her Suns. so again, when is the excuse and blame going to be enough to exact the necessary changes within our community and family? WHEN?