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Veneration of the Dark Godis is Veneration of the Whole Wombn. Our Power is in Darkness, but first wo-men have to leave our patriarchal conditioning behind - leave the father's house and his rules! Embrace the Way of the Womb!
When I was 19, I was supposed to go to college in Madrid Spain. I didn't go because my mother wasted my trust fund on the OOW children she birthed. It would have been better spent on its intended purpose when the Family gathered and sowed into me. Not wasted because she lacked control over her womb and had more babies than she could afford to raise. Remember, in my case, my mother willingly got impregnated trying to show this man she loved him and trying to breed him a son. At 19, when the college acceptance letter arrived I screamed. I jumped up and down. Foolishly, I didn't bother to apply for any other schools. I had one track on my mind. Go to Spain, graduate, fall in love, get married, start a business then a family. That was my thinking. Oh, to be young and starry eyed. Lol Mother promised me she would handle the admission fees and deposits. Since she fucked my trust fund away on her OOW children and her addict peen. You can guess what happened? Instead, one sister went to prom and the other went with her. Prom. Prom y'all. Fucking senior prom for an 11th grade daughter vs eldest child going to college. It wasn't even HER prom... I swallowed it down initially, but this is the point at which I began to HATE MY MOTHER. if I am honest. I hated the fuck out of her. I cried and prayed and begged god to take it away. But I fucking HATED her. It felt unnaturally right to direct ire and hatred toward her. It began the break down of "sista Soulja" and the construction of FUCK ALL OF YOU BYTCHES ITS MY TURN. All I had done, sacrificed; tolerated. And for what? For this thankless bytch to use the fuck out of me and leave me in the lurch so my sister had a limo and shyt for PROM!!! I was furious. I was beyond furious. I didn't even go to prom. All I ever wanted, the only thing I ever asked her ass for, was college. She made sure she messes up Spain for me. And when I bounced back in Boston? When I did get accepted in Boston? She jacked that up too. She told me: "I can't sign your fafsa I want to go to college and I don't want it to ruin my Chance." I just cried and made my plan to get away from her. Her goal was for me to never leave. To always be there for her use and make her life easier after she sport fucked her way into poverty and obscurity. Like most single mamas do, you all know. You've had friends or associates. Or you see from social media. Because I didn't bother to apply to local schools? I had no plan b. My plan a was the all. But, as I have always been A Godis among mortals; I created a new way. And I tucked Spain away in my heart. In the broken place. The place where Dreams Deferred went to die. Or so I thought. Possibilities are endless. The future is not finite, it is filled with infinite possibilities. Coming here is so healing for me. 11 years later, my dream deferred came true. I made it happen. I sowed these seeds. I watered these trees. Look at the delicious fruits they bear. So happy happy doesn't even describe it. Off for a full day. Did you Defer your Dream of Traveling? Deva FIYAH presents: BARCELONA 2018! I am only accepting 9 women to travel with me through Europe. Space is extremely limited and exclusive. I already have 5 sisters secured so only 4 spaces available. Click here to learn more.
You are not going to agree with me. And I am not going to give a fux. 😘 I remember this Episode like it was yesterday. It was Friday night, we were all teens, we were gathered in our Girl Scout Leaders house. A Tribe of Black Girls, doing BlackGirl Magic before it was a thing! Our ritual was to watch this together. We would gather with snacks and pile up in the brightly painted kitchen. I think, at that time, it was bright Orange. Like, BRIGHT ORANGE. When this scene played out I gasped and said YES TYRA!!!! The whole tribe looked at me, aghast. I was confused. Why weren't they celebrating Tyra too!? She was RIGHT! She coddled that girl, groomed her, showed her favor! And the lil ingrate was pissing it away. I was vexed for Tyra! How DARE YOU WE WERE ROOTING FOR YOU. WE WERE ALL ROOTING FOR YOU. Not one person felt the same. They all looked at ME sideways. I couldn't understand it. I instantly surmised it to be some ill fated, ingrained black woman loyalty. Like no matter how hard we fail, no matter how big we fuck up, never give up and go with the winner. Even if it means dragging your business or brand down. Now, on the one hand, I could identify with that sentiment. I do this to myself, not being true to my Brand. My Brand is Dark Gnostic Authority. And I too often fall into the old familiar Christian sister syndrome. Old sister Christian, wanted everyone to win. And thought all were worthy of favor and grace. The Dark Godis Bitch I Am knows better. Only the worthy may enter here. And for bw, whether we like it or not, it is a trial by Fire that we must endure for ascension. This is why the Dark Mother bestowed the Sacred Title of Deva Fiyah to me. As a God of Fire, title Official Uriel, we must be The Unburnt. But not everyone is ready or capable of this Elemental Power. A True Witch, if she is good, practices the elements. We all begin in elementary (The Element), graduating to The Middle and then seeking to be The High. My Tribe felt that Tyra should not have had a "melt down." Oh boy whenever a Black a Wombn expresses Passion and Authority count on someone to call it a "melt down." What I saw, was Tyra reach her Breaking Point. The Point of being "sick and tired of being sick and tired." The point of realizing that, once again, her LOVE was getting in the way of her business.
I watched her as in the following seasons, Tyra worked hard to curb her Love of Black Women so it didn't compromise her Business. She went against her partners for this girl. Had falling out behind the scenes with people she'd known in BUSINESS for years, defending this girl. It was a hard lesson. And one that I am applying to my own Work and Business. The Ignorance of the Dark is a Curse, so I ensure that I make my Clients aware of the Costs. Black Wombn seem to do this. I do not have this problem with any other clients but my black female clients. This is exclusive to who we are, globally, and how we value ourselves. If you walk away and break your contract you CURSE YOURSELF. All magic comes with a price -Rumple, Once Upon a Time And you were made aware of the costs. I don't have to curse anyone, so I don't. Black women Like Being cursed. So they curse themselves via their CHOICES! You alone have the power to rescue you or condemn yourself to cussedness. No one does this for or against you suga. Nothing on planet earth could or would stop me from my healing and my growth. Nothing. I mean, the Mentors and Teachers Rip me a new asshole at times! Because I've earned that by being stubborn and self sabotaging by going against the code and against myself. I come back for more. This is how I know bw don't truly value themselves. Nor do they value HEALING and freedom. Nothing on this f**king planet could have kept ME from it. Not words, not fear, nor nothing. That is the difference between Gods and Slaves. Which Witch are You?
I think all the time about how very little I could do, if I had a bastard baby.
I have a very expensive makeup and shoe lust. Ain't NO baby getting in the way of that. I thought about that every day, as I woke up in my Jamaican Villa. Looking over James Bond Beach. I thought about it when I stayed at Golden Eye, a multi million dollar resort and spa. I thought about it as I relaxed, trained, healed, grew. How I would be a broken, ugly, useless lump if I had some bastard baby to care for. The reality is I am glad I have no children. And I'm happy WE ARE SPEAKING UP! Bw deserve BETTER than some 2.0. How about getting it right from jump and never needing a retake? Why can't we empower and embolden black girls to CHERISH the Womb space and refuse to grant men access who have made no commitment to them? Fucking for free is for THE DUMB! Not even a married woman should be giving up herself for nothing in return from her man.
This post created quite a few waves. This sister has been called a mammy, and more. Because bw can't just disagree without having to SAVAGE another woman. Because the evil baby mama brigade™ has decided to wage war against the sovereign rite of Breeding in Season, for we who are childfree. They are attacking us all for daring to say we do not want the lives they lead as a result of their choices. Childfree women are being called all kinds of names by the evil baby mama brigade, a they have always done. I don't have to agree with every word written above. And I don't
But I do have to ask... Why can't we have more than the "I ruined my life with a bastard baby; but I got my shyt together and bounced back" story? Why is it so HORRIBLE for us to want more? Why are bw so hypersensitive that one sisters truth is read as a personal attack? For all our strengths, are we really so weak as to lack an ability to introspect and Be the Sovereign women or Gods we claim we are? Doesn't look like it. I love Ciara. I based my entire Dark Marriage 1 and Dark Marriage 2 class around her story. Training hundreds of bw how to bounce back with REAL DARK WISDOM! Which REAL DARK WISDOM is WITCH CRAFT or it is BULLSHYT! Period REAL DARK WISDOM is WITCH CRAFT or it is BULLSHYT! Period -Deva Fiyah
I enjoyed teaching. But I wish to GODIS we didn't have to coddle black women who fucked their lives over being foolish and self sacrificing. I don't even want to bother with such women anymore because they are often broken beyond repair and thus unable to do any work to heal. They balk at any attempt to help them grow and most would rather sit in their cursed state. Breeding out of season is a curse on you and the fruit of your womb. And I am not interested anymore in enabling and coddling such women. I'm interested now in the daughters who avoided this curse of breeding out of season. To help them stay the course.
So the WEAK among us will balk at the Priestess Wisdom I share. The WISE AND SAVVY BW are paying attention to win. Priestess Wisdom changed my life. And it has the power and ability to change yours too. I have a new 5 part course SEASON OF THE WITCH: Priestess Wisdom for Modern BW. I will be sharing with you sisters how to be The Priestess of your own life. How to preside over the realm of creation and death, with Real Dark Wisdom, and Dark Gnosis for Power Black women have been stripped of all power and authority. Left behind with nothing but self hate, self loathing, self sacrifice and self sabotage. This is 75% of bw too. You who encounter/come to me for healing are the Rare 1 in 4 who will divest and win. You need to learn how to identify with YOURSELF, and not concern yourself with someone else's struggles, failures and stupid decisions in life. We are NOT all in this together, the black sisterhood is dead and filled with bitter women who want you to FALL because they fell for the one eyed snake! Don't let them do that to you. Ignorance is indeed a CURSE, and the fallen bw wants to keep you ignorant thus cursed with her and her manifested bad decision making. Sign up here for my 5 course series SEASON OF THE WITCH: PRIESTESS WISDOM FOR MODERN BW
This isn't a question I ever considered until after I was married. I had plenty of evidence, plenty of reasons to ask this question. But I never allowed it. All my life, I had heard how "white" I was from black people. Wanting to be married before having babies? "You sound like a white woman" is what I heard back from never married, black mothers. Wanting to go to college? "Aunties kids think they white" was the retort of cousins, my mothers friends at work also would say to her that her children "thought they were white" for our ambitions and desires. My desires and wishes as a teenager?
There were others. But let's keep this short. Repeatedly, I was called too ambitious and strong minded (as if it is negative to be of sound and strong mind) to be a black woman. The way I talked was ridiculed, the way I walked and dressed too. So I should have seen it coming. Alas, I was a very friendly child. And quite naive to how evil and sadistic the world can be. I was a girl in love with a boy, wanting to make a family. In my young mind, at that time, I was doing what every heterosexual woman alive wanted to. I was getting married to the love of my life and forming a new family. As women have done for thousands of years. I didn't see any of what they saw. I didn't see my choice to be loved by a Masculine Provider as a rejection of anything. This awareness was borne, by the reaction and response of the black people around me. The women in my family turned against me the moment discussion of marriage to him became a reality. Once he proposed, I saw them shift away from me completely. They were all black women. And suddenly? I wasn't one. They were in this together, and I had betrayed the pack. My mother and my sisters, my aunties all reacted as if I BETRAYED them. I couldn't understand how how my life choices to be married and happy could be received as anything else. My life long refusal to conform to black "standards" (if we can call them that) of what it means to be a black woman; suddenly was too much. Not only had I rejected sexual coupling with the black woman's son all my teenaged years, in my 20's I was getting married to a man who also wasn't a black woman's son. This is a HUGE no no. They loved me, as long as I was talking about how we shouldn't take shyt. But the MONENT I actually practically applied it? I was deemed self hating. Many of you reading this will also deem me as "self hating" because I refuse to accept degradation and struggle as the definition of blackness. The rejection of the poverty consciousness that is now the prevailing black identity, the rejection of the struggle narrative of a bum and a baby, the rejection of being the ni**er of the world by mulling for a thankless community.... Chile the women in my family started treating me like I was the uppity light skint auntie!!! Simply for wanting MORE! For refusing to provide emotional labor to "the cause" aka the black male. And they also began trying to bleed us dry financially. Not only am I married, I married outside the race. And ya know white men are "rich." I used to balk when folks said blacks are racist. I towed the party line of "blacks don't control the system" ya know. The regurgitated sound bite. But.... Blacks do control the system. In fact, the system is PREDICATED upon black inferiority. And since BLACK PEOPLE now define BLACKNESS as being broke, hood, a baby mama/daddy, never married, not speaking articulately or able to write cogent mf sentences!!!! All of this makes you black. I was called white all my life. Because we grew up outside the hood and I read books..... because I wanted to go to college!!! No bs. And other stupid ass shyt. I used to balk when folks said blacks are racist. I towed the party line of "blacks don't control the system" ya know. The regurgitated sound bite. Tell A negro you own your own business? They back the fuck up and look at yuh funny. Blacks don't have business. They have side hustles to make ends meet!!!! How do we differentiate between the groups? The blacks who want to thrive and live well, and the blacks who have begun to accept struggle and degradation as the sole narrative and defining quality of what it means to be black? As a Priestess and Healer of the Womb, I often get bw complaining about the cost of healing and the cost of sessions. It has been said, "She think she a white woman with them prices." Baby, the white woman charges you hundreds and often THOUSANDS of dollars to speak to her for 1 hour. I only charge ya black ass $125. Seriously!? 😂 Black folks degrade blackness, project their willful degradation onto whiteness, and blame white people for not being dysfunctional beasts in THEIR communities. Or cite the anomalies in white communities to justify the indignity of black community. This whole thing is a part of the black psychosis and mental illness. I am going to now deem BLACKNESS ITSELF as mental illness. We have to invent a new identity, or at least a way to delineate between the mentally stable and the mentally insane. First of all, black = brain lack. You lack certain cognitive functions and mental faculties to be healthy and successful. The definition of INSANE is to repeatedly do the same thing, expecting a different result. And yet here we have negros. Doing the same dumb shyt generation after generation. Blackness is mental illness. To be black now means to be mentally deprived and mentally impaired. That is the only way to actually identify with the culture and call it your own. You have to become ONE of them. Or you ain't really black. Dark as I am?? I'm not considered a "true" black woman. Nope. Ya right. I'm not. I don't have the mental impairment of a black woman. I am a woman of dark hue. But I am not the same as a black woman. Discovering who you are, is a huge part of divestment from blackistan. The black community tells you who to be and assigns a role to you. To break free, and trailblaze is to divest and be Sovereign. We have to go from Empathy to Apathy, as black women. The whole world preys on our hearts and good intentions. Becoming apathetic to the plight of others is how we divest from being mammy and instead invest in being WHO WE TRULY ARE. discovery of this is difficult without help, schedule your session with the Priestess. Let's change your life together. Schedule your Session with The Priestess Here.You have the Power to Create Your own Universe, your own multiverse. Sadly, creation of realms has been denied to women under patriarchy. Our powers, abilities, and authority has been stripped of us. Instead of Creating/Celebrating God within, we are trained to idolize and worship things outside of ourselves. We see this with Beyoncé taking the world by storm, celebrating Oshun, while CREATING A new Diety entirely. Most people missed the Fact that her performance was a ritual of Creation. They only saw Oshun or Venus. They didn't see the NEW thing. Which I will reveal in my class to MY students, exclusively. White women have called her anti-feminist; attacked her elevation of Mother to God status and more. Often times? It is OTHER WOMENS VERBAL ASSAULT AND WARFARE that causes us to tow the line; vs break forth from the old with new innovative ways of viewing the world. Many of you have businesses, ideas; desires and things you want to bring forth. Guidance helps us. In the time before the men came, we Wombn would gather together. We would sing and pray and hold space for one another; as the Wombn seeking to create life was covered and protected. We lent our energy to the process of Sacred creation. And Sacred Creations are those born of a Virgin womb, those self-propagated, those created WITHOUT man or sperm. We have been disconnected from this Sacred Feminine Rite or Virgin Birthing. In this class, I return this lost gnosis to the Godis. I have a surprise about this class. First the course start date is March 17th. The rest? You have to sign up to see. Wisdom has to be returned to the Feminine. In order to elevate from the Conquered to GODHOOD. It is time to study Godis Archetypes. I welcome you to sign up for my new class: Creating God in You. Sign up for Creating God in You HERE! |
AuthorDeva Fiyah is a Priestess, Anthropologist, Feminist, and Feminine historian. She has helped women from all around the world, actualize their Goddess Power, with Healing, Retreats and Courses in Self Mastery. Archives
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