I grew up watching this show. I mention this at the outset of the post because I loved seeing the variations in these sisters personalities. I had the Sinclair and Regine beaten (literally) out of my by my mother. She encouraged the aspects of me that were Khadijah and Maxine Shaw. In fact, girlie wanted to be a lawyer because of characters like Maxine Shaw and Claire Huxtable. But the innocent hippy and the Sovereign Lover who honors HER DESIRES AND HER PUSSY FIRST?

Beaten right out of me. Those aspects of me did not serve her needs. And so I was fragmented, split into pieces, so I could serve her purpose instead of God's Purpose for my life. It is an ugly thing that black mothers do to their daughters. Generation after generation this cursed thing continues.

They all do this for the exact same reason my mother did. I love my daddy.... but.... She failed to procure a worthy masculine to sire her children. So she did what most black women do to their daughters. We become the baby daddy she needs but failed to select prior to being bred and abandoned like a stray cat. *sips tea. *blinks daring a mf to try me.

We are treated with no respect, zero empathy and expected to be even smarter than our own mothers were at our age. In many cases, our mothers were simply hot body teenagers who were screwing before they learned anything about themselves. Which is how they became mothers. Seldom do black mothers birth children by choice. Nearly 70% of all Black children are "oops" babies. Borne of mothers who don't believe in abortion... but interestingly believed in raw fornication. So much so they wound up with bastard out of wedlock babies being born.

Funny how that morality works, ain't it yall?

Yes. This is scathing. But fire burns and cleanses. It purifies.

We grow up without loving affection. Too few of us have fathers in the home. I spent my teens and 20's resentful toward my mother and deeming her a weak mf who couldn't live without a man. She is. But there is more to the story too.

She was smarter than the baby mama brigade. She knew we needed a father. She, having had a Patriarch Father who worked hard and provided his family with a home be owned and cared for; knew the value of a man in the home. Also she knew that if you’re gonna be the scarlet letter woman and breed with someone else’s husband, ya beta keep him around at least for appearance sake. And so she did. But it made her utterly miserable, and in that misery, from that self inflicted misery? She mothered and wifed all my childhood. She sacrificed joy, for sensibility and practicality. She did it so “my daughters do not grow up without a father.”

But as a child all I saw is how much it hurt mommy to have my daddy in her life. My loyalty WAS to my mother exclusively. Key word WAS. She will never again receive that kind of dedication, nor will any other single living soul. However, when I was a child I did as a child. And my loyalty went to her. Righteously so, we ate and had shelter because MOTHER Provided. My mother WAS GOD! God is the creator. The maintainer. The sustainer. And she did all of that whether my father contributed or, as was most often the case, not.

She too was raised hard. Her brother was coddled. My father was coddled. If my grandmother wasn't dead the last 30+ years? He would be at home with his mommy, right now today. As it is, he has only ever had lodging, (after he ruined his marriage making love to my mother, and producing me.) when he had a “woman.”

The fact remains that because his mother coddled him, and her mother rode her like a mule? Always a harsh word from my granny to my mom.... she wasn’t ready or properly prepared for life. Because of this? My parents were ill matched. Mother wanted a Patriarch, as was her father. But a gentle soul which her career military father was not. My father is a gentle soul he was raised to be a Good Son. Not a Good Man, Good Husband, Good Lover, Good friend.

Black women raise insufficient male children. And the whole race suffers. Yes I said it. We have to do better as mothers. You’re not raising your son. You are raising someone’s husband and father. Someone’s lover. For the love of all that is good and holy, raise your boys! Stop “loving on them” raise them! Remember he is someone’s future husband, future lover, future father, future friend. And raise him to be that!

I've learned though, it's cultural, some of the norms we see in the black race. My fathers family is Maroon native. The women run the tribe. The men just seed and do the manual labor. Lol. My mothers family are Caribs. lol Bajan men work hard, it's what they know. They work hard, they secure the house and put the wife in it. Lol. It's the culture for men of my grandfathers time. But my mothers cohort were not prepared for the lazy, ungrateful, entitled, petty males that populate the earth in our race, today. I certainly was not prepared.

And I see this of black American women. They, like my fathers mother, are raising good sons. Not strong patriarchs.
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So when I found this post by J. Renee I wanted to share. Cuz I agree.

We are gearing up for Mother's Day, a day internationally recognized in honor of the people who give us life. But there is another side. A darker, colder, meaner, more confusing side of the story. One that requires our careful and nuanced attention and consideration.

I wish we could be honest. I just began to play with makeup. As a grown azz woman. The goal post was always being moved. It was bad enough I was shapely and young and innocent, which men LOVE and LUST FOR in young women..... this made her feel competitive and even jealous of me enough to sabotage my esteem and accuse me of trying to garner unwanted male attention just living and breathing.

That wasn't enough. It went from when your 16 to 18 to when you move out. By then it had been cemented in me that enhancing my mind was more important than any investment in my beauty. This was true for me and most other girls I knew. Some would sneak clothes and makeup to school and change. Others of us were too frightened of our mothers finding out so we just towed the line until we were grown/married women.
The only time I ever remember seeing my mother apply makeup? I was 20. And we were going To my aunties funeral. The foundation was way too light. And I remember coming down stairs and screaming (because I was genuinely frightened) "what the hell happened to your face mommy!?"

Her mother was QUEEN of glamour. Was very angry with my mom for giving up the feminine. My Nanna was a fox who wore fox and pearls. Had a vanity table that would put Liz Taylor to shame. My mom was so hopelessly anti-feminine. By the time she became a mother, it seems the feminine died for her. And she was eager to kill it in we her daughters.

So, while I am PROUD that women who are mothers now, might be invested in the feminine and HONORING their daughters feminine growth and rites of passage, there is a WHOLE SWATH of grown daughters just getting into glamour and into the feminine frequency.

Furthermore, given the FACT that bm are so predatory and absolutely defunct when it comes to being Masculine Protectors..... many bw beat the feminine out of their girls in anger and in sadism as well as in defense of them. We have to be honest about bm hatred of femininity in bw. Because then he is REQUIRED to not just imbibe on it, but protect it and encourage its reproduction in future generations.

And we have to be honest about our mothers acts of complicity with these beasts. They didn't fight, they didn't deny these hyper-Masculine predators access. They acquiesced and beat or discouraged us to "protect" us from their naturally predatory disposition. This is horrible and has negatively impacted our connection to The Feminine.

HOW CAN WE BE FEMININE FLIRTY GIRLY when the males of our cohort ABHOR these qualities in us and do all they can to abuse, trick, pimp, and prey on? I GREW UP in a place where we could be little girls. Upon moving to blackistan, I had to quickly learn that:


Smiling
Wearing pretty things
Wearing light or bright colors
Speaking
Lookin people in the eye
Having an inviting or pleasant look on your face

Etc all made you prime prey. It was a girl from the hood who taught me how to survive in and among blackistani residents. I had no concept of this, even though my mother still raised us as a bw mother would, to prevent the predatory mess.

I may have been abducted by a mf pimp if not for that girl. Because where I grew up, you spoke to your neighbors. You said good morning. We spoke to the elders, male and female. But you cannot do this in blackistan. The feminine frequency is under siege there.

We have to be honest about what is happening. And every single discussion about black femininity requires NUANCED thinking, which is not the black womans strong suit. We have to remember multiple generations are involved, demography and geography also adds and sometimes alters the experience. Exceptions to the rule do not change the rule. They exist in the realm of variables, again nuanced thinking Is required.

Or we can continue to take the easy way out and claim they and the media are at fault. Even still, this comes back to bm and THEIR MEDIA depictions of bw and girls in the last 30 years. Now that bw have MORE POWER AS CONTENT CREATORS, it is on Us To produce images we want to see. It absolutely is. We must do this. We have to take control of our own image and of black woman the brand.

Each of us can do this wherever we are. Let's get creative. With that said, I present my new class:


Dark Magic: Glamour. In this course I will be teaching you about ENERGY and channeling. If you do not know how to channel, you will NOT be able to use the Power of the Feminine Frequency for more than the surface. Symbols are powerful, imagery is powerful, and our ability to present and represent Black Wombn The Brand is POWER PERSONIFIED. The Godis has 1,000 faces and 10,000 names. Being able to channel the Godis, using not only surface glamour of hair nails and makeup, but inner energy, is your birth rite and power. PayPal.me/MysticEnchantress/55

First, I refuse to link to her gofund me... period. She is dumb and I will not be helping her gain anything from this. At what point do WOMEN take responsibility for the idiotic decisions they make when it comes to mate selection and even breeding? READ for yourself...

Fear of GOD she says.... yes lets put it on Sky daddy. This is how women are able to get out of self accountability and responsibility. Instead of saying "i was a fool in love and did not value myself" she deflects to blame a fear of God. Here in the realm of The DARK, we are about Self Accountability and Self Mastery. How many of you reading, have been here? Low to no self worth, slumming it with a bum male who was 40 levels beneath you?

​Dear sisters: an inability to RECEIVE (negative space) is the result of an imbalanced Root Chakra. We must heal the womb. February 3rd we begin Yoni Language 4: Feminine Pleasure/Sexual Privilege. In this course I am teaching you how to move the Womb and Ovarian Chi energy. It is incredibly dense Energy and we do not do enough to honor, worship, and adore our Root/Yoni Energy 

Men are always moving their Root Chakra energy. Which is why they win so often and nothing sticks to them. But they also aren't women and they lack the Womb Gynergy and Entity. The Womb is a negative space/receiver energy. All our thoughts, fears, traumas, negative experiences and more, get stored there. 

It is time to learn how to be Masters of the Womb and the Yoni. To be Powerful in every way, and to reconnect to ourselves as the Sacred Sovereign. 

This system is determined to divorce us from our Sacerdotal Authority and Power. Only the Sovereign, the Savvy, the Worthy will enter to reclaim what is theirs. All hail the womb, the Flower of Life. The Sovereign Spiral of Creation.

We had a sister ask the question: Do you go to the dark if the light is killing you?


I answered it in this video: ​

Yes honey! Yoni Eggs are now mainstream. I've been a Yoni Priestess for a while. They heal and help restore. The most well known are the Taoist practices from China and Tantra from India. Both have divine feminine roots. They ascend from the darkness. It is impossible to separate the sacred and the Goddess. Throughout many ancient traditions you will find the serpent, the bird and the egg. The egg and the serpent are symbols of female creator energy, (re)birth, resurrection, and the divine feminine circular eggs and spiritual spirals of the Goddess.


Sign up here for my class on Sacred Yoni Egg Magic, to reconnect to your Divine Masculine Lover and Divine Feminine Self!