The Angry Deva's Blog
Veneration of the Dark Godis is Veneration of the Whole Wombn. Our Power is in Darkness, but first wo-men have to leave our patriarchal conditioning behind - leave the father's house and his rules! Embrace the Way of the Womb!
I deeply respect the process of growth. The more I grow.
But what I have learned, is that u cannot FORCE a thing to grow. You cannot force a seed to sprout. All you can do is prepare conditions it needs, for it to do what nature intends for it to do.
You can plant it in fertile soil. Give it water and good sun.
But if a damn bird come pick ya seed out the dirt? Guess what? It will NOT grow.
Trauma is like a bird picking the seeds you planted, out of the fertile soil u planted it into. When one experiences trauma, it creates physical, emotional, mental and spiritual harms. And these harms often inhibit or completely hinder your ability to grow/move forward in life.
Then you blame yourself.
No darlin. It’s not u.
What happened to u is not your fault. But it is your responsibility to heal and to grow.
When you are in trauma? You cannot SEE yourself properly. You cannot see the situation you are in properly. All you can see is the trauma/drama/pain. Your too close to it. It takes some distance from the event, lots of healing work and self redevelopment work to come back from trauma.
It is not EASY!
The reason I do the spiritual trauma healing work for you, is to make the mountain surmountable. Without that work, it remains insurmountable. You are incapable of growth. All your seeds have been picked out of the fertile earth, by birds of prey. The predators who attack u, the abusers, they are just like birds in the garden. After you have sown.
You cannot reap, when someone/thing else is feeding on what you first sowed. When someone/thing else has picked what you sowed out of the fertile earth and devoured it.
We have to get yo shyt back for you to replant it.
And it is my true LIFE HONOR to do so. All I ever wanted, from the moment the church told us about generational curses when I was 15? Was to be the curse breaker. I never knew I would leave the church and become a Priestess to do it. But I vowed I would be one who breaks curses.
It has been a desire of mine that I have fulfilled. And am proud to perform rites and rituals to help other women heal and eventual return to growth.
That which does not grow is dead.
Being the walking dead is a dishonor to your soul light, to your purpose, to your life, to your mother who risked her life to birth you. It is dishonorable to the First Law of Nature which is self preservation. It is dishonorable to the laws of Spirit.
You owe you much more than that sis. Your story cannot end at “this nigha raped me” or “my mama abused me” or “my daddy wasn’t there.” Or whatever your story. Even if not named here. You still deserve better Than that outcome.
Dying in trauma is not acceptable. There is a reason you found me. Don’t squander it. Don’t self sabotage. Do not let trauma win.
Choose you. Choose your growth.
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Writing is my Joy and Pleasure. I've been writing creative pieces, analytic pieces and empirical pieces since I learned how! I use my pen and prose to expose people to things they either don't know or never thought of. I am political, analytic, critical all things that Virgo/Gemini is. The Logos is the Eros to me. <3