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Veneration of the Dark Godis is Veneration of the Whole Wombn. Our Power is in Darkness, but first wo-men have to leave our patriarchal conditioning behind - leave the father's house and his rules! Embrace the Way of the Womb!
 #DarkFeminine So the courts have decided that it is perfectly legal to racially discriminate against bw's natural hair? They have decided to allow companies to hire and fire bw based on our natural tresses. They have legislated against Gods Nature, in the banning of our natural hair. We allowed it to get to this point. When they came for the trees, we said nothing. When they came for the water, we said nothing. When they came for the womb, we said nothing. And now they have come for the Crown. Not on my watch! Arise you Dark Witches! Your Mystic Powers and Potent Essences are needed once more. As a Loc Godis myself, I will not sit back on this one. I wear my love proud! They represent my Spirituality, my Power, my Authority, my Splendor, my Cosmic Connection to the Dark Mother, these Locs Breathe and divine. They alert me to dangers near and far, I hear better because my Antennas are always up! And as the Dark Divine Feminine rises, they seek to snuff us out, to attack us, to limit our Great Power. I will not protest, I will not organize or march. But see this lil light of mine? Imma let it shine. These Black SKULL Candles will light for 30 days. As I call on the Ancestral Mothers. To guide us with wisdom, home to our Dark Mothers. I will invoke and conjure the Dark Legions that serve The Me. Arise you Dark Witches, you Dark Bishes, you Evil Witches. We call upon the Infernal Names of the Great Blak She, the Darkness Upon the Deep. ~Luna, The Angry God Sign up here for our 30 day Invocation of the Dark Mother. Yes honey! Yoni Eggs are now mainstream. I've been a Yoni Priestess for a while. They heal and help restore. The most well known are the Taoist practices from China and Tantra from India. Both have divine feminine roots. They ascend from the darkness. It is impossible to separate the sacred and the Goddess. Throughout many ancient traditions you will find the serpent, the bird and the egg. The egg and the serpent are symbols of female creator energy, (re)birth, resurrection, and the divine feminine circular eggs and spiritual spirals of the Goddess. Sign up here for my class on Sacred Yoni Egg Magic, to reconnect to your Divine Masculine Lover and Divine Feminine Self! Purchase your Safe, Oracle Blessed Egg here!  Every time I was abused I burned my writings Fire purifies I snatched my wings from my back I went silent I refused to speak a kind word A comforting word I breathed fire For 1,113 days Every word Burned Until, there was no more Me. And then, only then Could I become The Phoenix Rising from the ashes of what was Into what I was always born to be.  Deva Fiyah, the Beautiful One, the Unburnt. Mother of Dragons, Queen of Heaven and Earth, Protector of the Realm. Luna Pierce aka Deva Fiyah is an Anointed Initiate Priestess of the Dark Mother. She is a healer, teacher, mystic woman, Anthropologist, Feminist, and Feminine historian. She has helped women from all around the world, actualize their Goddess Power, with Healing, Retreats and Courses in Self Mastery.
 I tried to change. Closed my mouth more, tried to be softer, prettier, less awake. ~Beyonce, Lemonade When I first saw Beyonce's Lemonade, the above words brought sobs to the surface for me. Because I could relate, as a survivor of male sexual terrorism and its evil sibling, The Savage Sisterhood. I have experienced such gross brutality, along my healing journey. A fate many of us, who have survived sexual terrorism, seem doomed to experience. ~Deva Fiyah
The past few days I've been proud of myself and my sisters. Watching those disloyal women abuse me, call me crazy, tell people I was mentally unstable years ago... Yet not mention I was raped and that RAPE is what caused the PTSD I still suffer, was triggering. It makes you not want to connect to people, at all, while you are healing. I know. I understand and I am sorry you all, we all, had to witness and experience that. It takes a while for us to heal. Some of us never recover, I am thankful for the gift of healing. I am one of the lucky ones. These women wanted to use my formerly unhealed spaces, to destroy me. Why? All too often, in the black community; when a black girl is sexually abused she is disbelieved. Black girls never get to be girls, we come into the world with the cultural, and now global, expectation that we have the cognitive skills and abilities of full grown, never traumatized, adults. We are expected to shoulder tremendous amounts of emotional, financial, and spiritual burdens. To even dare to say you are hurting, as a black woman, to other black women; is seen as some sort of competition and definitely deemed weakness. In our communities, the females are demanded to be "strong" (read: long-suffering) yet are vulnerable because we have no protection from the males of our race. Moreover, the males of our race are our primary attacker/rapist, and are encouraged to be weak and predatory of our femaleness and femininity. To be soft, vulnerable, open, to need support and understanding often makes bw a target for brutality from bw and bm alike. Many bw have experienced their own mothers not only invalidating the molestation/rape that occurred, but blaming the girl for it. My own mother, at age 7, was molested during a slumber party, by her friends 14 year old brother. When she told, they convinced her she was having a bad dream. They attacked her psyche, and tried to convince her, she'd made it up. Made her question her sanity, gas-lighting it is called, so they did not have to deal with the discomfort of a male, sexually molesting a 7 year old baby girl. Unfortunately, she grew up to become a woman who continued this sadistic tradition with me, when I was molested as a baby girl. We are called fast in the ass, hot tailed and easy; to dismiss the sexually predatory behavior of black boys and men. Being able to articulate ourselves is tough. Our voices are primarily stomped out, when we have survived sexual terrorism. First by the sexual abuse, and next by the response and reaction of the women in our families and our communities, at large. Recovering from Sexual Assault is difficult enough on its own. To know that our global climate demands that women "get healing" yet not many are invested in being supportive of women as we achieve that healing, compounds this issue. And too many have a false notion of what that healing should look like. Rape is a curse, do not be deceived, it is a curse against the Divine Feminine. When we have been cursed and we forgive our rapist, we essentially lay down in that energy. We wear it, it steals our life and vitality. We deny ourselves the right to be restored, healed, set free, delivered from the curse of male sexual terrorism. The Yoni and the Womb are so delicate, such Divine Intimate spaces in our being. When a man has assaulted your yoni, or a woman for that matter, we store it. We hold it. It turns into dis-ease, into physical manifestations that we did not intend and that do not bode well for us. (cancers, high blood pressure, heart disease, dementia, alzheimers and others.)  We are away this weekend. I adore being a New England girl because of all the trees and our close proximity to everything that is wonderful. :) When you are in pain? You cannot enjoy your happiness, your relationship, your business. Joy just keeps escaping you. And it will, I promise, until you allow yourself to do and say all the things you've been told not to.  My trauma wounds, from the abuse I endured from my mother, to the sexual assault and molestation I survived; almost caused me to destroy every good thing in my life. I had a hard time trusting the right people, because I didn't trust myself. I, like most women who have survived sexual assault, blamed myself. I questioned my value. How can I be The Oracle, a Priestess, a Witch, a Healer; and be raped? Why didn't I see this coming? Why couldn't I stop it.
I beat myself up that way for years. I pushed away all the people who truly loved me. I connected with women who were jealous, envious, catty, petty, and also unhealed. I didn't think myself worthy of loving connection to other people. I could only see the rape. I felt dirty, used, and unworthy I'm here to tell you? That is a bold faced lie. We are worthy, and what's more, what happened to us is not our fault. We will heal, despite the fact that the entire world leaves us traumatized and without true support and understanding. We will stand together, loving ourselves into healing. And remembering that we are the value and the prize. Deva Fiyah, the Controversial Oracle Photo: by me of love without color.  I have issued myself a challenge regarding how I articulate my thoughts. With Angry Devas, the whole point was for me to be as crass, forward and brash as possible. To learn to be comfortable with making others uncomfortable. This was hard for me. I created it, so I could keep on living after being raped. I did the show every day, to stay alive. Angry Deva Saved my life, I clung to her like a baby for 3 years. Almost stunting my growth.
My rage came from rape, my anger came from rape and betrayal. So... The women who are upset with me, for cussin, fussin, and taking no shyt? Are women who would have preferred that I stayed quiet and unhealed. They don't care to understand what rape does to us. Some use our journey to jab at us, rape culture is enacted by women too. Angry Devas, as I said from the outset, was for me. I created Angry Devas so I had a place to recover and restore after sexual assault trauma. I needed an outlet, a place to access and wield my Righteous Indignation. I had to get it out of my system. We encourage expression even self expression; until we dislike how someone expresses themselves. Until we begin to deem ourselves as greater or higher than another and tell them how they should be, or react, or heal. The world is abusive to raped women, too. Perhaps worse. Healing doesn't look the same for everyone. Some people need to forgive. Some need to move on. And some of us, we beautiful messes? We require vengeance, to be restored. That vengeance often gets waged against the soul, when we do not express ourselves, our true feelings. For years, I was angry. I was angry at bm, because it was a bm who raped me, who molested me, who abused me sexually. It was always a bm. I was angry with bw, starting with my mother. Because she failed to protect me. As a girl, I did not allow myself to feel that anger at all. I certainly never expressed it. I was angry with women who have sons, because they are the ones who give birth to the men who rape us. |
AuthorDeva Fiyah is a Priestess, Anthropologist, Feminist, and Feminine historian. She has helped women from all around the world, actualize their Goddess Power, with Healing, Retreats and Courses in Self Mastery. Archives
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