The Angry Deva's Blog
Veneration of the Dark Godis is Veneration of the Whole Wombn. Our Power is in Darkness, but first wo-men have to leave our patriarchal conditioning behind - leave the father's house and his rules! Embrace the Way of the Womb!
This "anger" that is the THEME of my work is Righteous! Words can be so misleading and "anger" is perceived as it is due to counter spiritual definition. Therefore, the mere mention of "anger" paints a picture that has been impressed on our minds as something volatile and hostile... but if one can get on the other side of that, we are reminded that this energy is our fire, and this fire is our very source. Do not allow this in any way to be diminished.
Anger is a POWERFUL agent of change! Am i always angry? No! Do i like, go around and kick old ladies? Hell no! Do i go around spitting on men? No. I actually completely ignore men. These days? They don't have access to me unless they are driving the taxi.
My Anger isn't constant. As has been evidenced here and on our show, Deva is a damn goof!! I am silly and playful and a prankster! But i recognize the power of Anger and Outrage as transformative Spiritual Initiations. The flaring of anger or indignation is an Initiation on our Dark Night/Knight of the Soul Journey.
When i began my journey? I was frightened of my anger. I tried to repress it and pretend it wasnt there. Whenever it did show, i was met with rapid reprimand from other women. And being raised in an abusive household, raised to be an obedient child, and expected to remain that way eternally; I was willing to give up my right, to appease them. This is no more.
"You may write me down in history
This is my very favorite poem by Dr. Maya Angelou. It is the first of her works that found me. I remember, holding that poem in my hands. And thinking to myself; "God sent you just for me!" This is my Mantra:
Still I Rise! Never to give up, never to give in! ;)
I embrace my anger, my rage, my love, my gentleness, my patience and impatience, my fears and my dreams. I go running to all the things we arent supposed to say or do, because I know i can Survive. Fear kills more dreams than failure, my former fear of my anger? Was killing my dreams, it was siphoning my energy, it was destructive to my psyche and my soul.
I dare you:
Release your fear of the ANGER! I love the dark Goddess because she taught me that death is only the beginning. That death is not final, that death and destruction means creation and rebirthing. With Death comes the renewal and refreshing. We are borne again through this Dark Night/Knight of the soul.
I often think the problem for black women is:
This is a strategic attempt to silence black women; because black women are Creators and our Creator energy is a powerful arbiter of change. The result is a Cowardly Lion disposition, all roar and no bite.
This is a good question.
When we do not express ourselves, we impress those feelings. These things manifest in poor diet, poor outlook and poor disposition. We tolerate less than we deserve because we no longer value ourselves.
We cannot value who we are, when we repress our anger. This isnt spiritual or righteous, in fact there is nothing righteous about repression. Let us give back this mythos of "turning the other cheek." The Art of Getting Even is practiced by everyone.
Except black women.
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Writing is my Joy and Pleasure. I've been writing creative pieces, analytic pieces and empirical pieces since I learned how! I use my pen and prose to expose people to things they either don't know or never thought of. I am political, analytic, critical all things that Virgo/Gemini is. The Logos is the Eros to me. <3