The Angry Deva's Blog
Veneration of the Dark Godis is Veneration of the Whole Wombn. Our Power is in Darkness, but first wo-men have to leave our patriarchal conditioning behind - leave the father's house and his rules! Embrace the Way of the Womb!
It is my firm assessment that the Cycles of Time are worked to Maximize our output, yet minimize our enjoyment of the same. I tried everything I could think of, to shift myself into a life I enjoyed; to welcome the abundance I knew was mine. I had no idea, at the time, what I was in for. All I knew is I had this dream. I had a dream of Owning my own Business, and of reaching out to other wombn in a way that made sense to me and that resonated with me. I had no clue how these two things would come together, I simply knew that Rent and Tuition were due.
I was clinging to my fears, instead of chasing my dreams; all the while, deluding myself into believing that the life i lived was one of my dreams.
At some point in our lives as wombn, we stop dreaming. Meaning we stop being creators of our own dreams, instead we begin to absorb the fantasies of others which are marketed to us as our dreams. Or as more important than our dreams. This varies Wombn to Wombn and circumstance to circumstance, but it is always the underlying issue and cause.
How do I change tracks? Is it feasible to chase my dreams?
At first, it seemed impossible. I had no support, my family was drawing on my energy and my partner, at the time, was selfish and dissociated. One day, I had a break-through in the form of a breakdown, and I realized:
If I died today, this would be it for me. I will be said to be a hard worker, a good student, a supportive sister, a loving partner, a devoted daughter. But they cannot say I have lived, they cannot say i have taken chances, or broken barriers, no one will be able to say this is a wombn who knew who she was. This cannot be the end for me.
I remember laying there, in pain and unable to breathe. As I came around, I decided right then and there that I would have more in my life. I would create, even if it meant i FAILED.... (gasp). This required, dedication, introspection, self reflection and also courage. It took that semi-nervous breakdown, for me to finally see the impact that my lifestyle was having on me. I barely slept, I was always on the go, everyone else's needs and desires were a priority in my life over my own, my grades began to suffer, my interpersonal relationships began to suffer, my health began to suffer.
I invested in myself, and went on vacation. I spent one week away, sleeping, not worried, not thinking about who needed what. This occurred at a point in my life where I wanted change, something greater, greater financial abundance, new experiences, meeting new people. After sleeping in the most odd of patterns for only 2 weeks, I birthed 3 businesses and concepts. I challenged myself to greater heights, and to take on new endeavors. It was tremendous, what was able to come out of me, because I allowed myself to dream and sleep. I allowed myself to try, to create, to see where it goes. When I got Started, I had flour and sugar and a dream based on my favorite childhood doll. I became a baker! When that transitioned, I had 3 strands of gemstone beads and then created The Store. I had a traumatic experience that shocked me and then created Angry Deva's. Each time, I created something, out of nothing, and overcame the fear that it wouldn't grow or succeed. Not unlike a wombn who wants to have a baby, you do your best to prepare and really the rest is up to Time, Space and Matter.
Sometimes extreme discomfort is not only necessary, but a part of the process of giving birth to the excellence lying dormant within.
Fairy tales, I have come to understand, both have a helpful and debilitating impact on our Dreamers Paradise. One of my fave Disney Movies is Cinderella. I fell in love with the lyrics to "A Dream is a Wish your Heart Makes" and have come to understand, as an adult, that Walt Disney was on to something. Being an Occult Genius, Disney was able to tap into our Psyche as children and embed messages that often are the driving force of much of our decision making today. We often see Cinderella picked apart as it pertains to Prince Charming and the Happily Ever After, but I see this as helping us understand Business greater than ever before. Which we go over in the course. ;)
Yes. Sleep is good for creation and creative energy. It is through our sleep that we are renewed and revived. Also that we are able to See our Path Clearly, which is something that is available to all of us Wombn. Being able to DECODE your dreams is important. Many times we miss the keys and clues because we simply don't know the meaning. Accordingly, we miss out on great new opportunities through this way. In this class, I will be explaining to you how to catch the symbols and signs, we will be discussing The Symbol Dictionary and a Dream Manifestation Journal as well.
I am offering an Intuitive Dream Management and Structuring Course, Sign up below to learn how to make your dreams come True. The course will include:
Why am I doing this? When I began my business, I thought I had all the right support. I had, a tax accountant, I had people to help with Inventory and all. But really? I had a bunch of fantasies and other peoples dreams that I had absorbed and which were clouding my own. If I knew then what I know now, I could have saved myself a lot of headache, drama, trauma and even financial loss. Ignorance is a curse, let my Lessons be your blessings. Sign up today!
*The Angry Deva's Biz Week's Boot-camp meets Saturday's at 9am EST. Calls will be Archived and Recorded, but only those who are (AIS) ass-in-seat will have access to the Dynamic Q&A and the One on One Chat and Chill sessions and brainstorming builds.
Call details will be emailed to you after signup.*
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Writing is my Joy and Pleasure. I've been writing creative pieces, analytic pieces and empirical pieces since I learned how! I use my pen and prose to expose people to things they either don't know or never thought of. I am political, analytic, critical all things that Virgo/Gemini is. The Logos is the Eros to me. <3