The Angry Deva's Blog
Veneration of the Dark Godis is Veneration of the Whole Wombn. Our Power is in Darkness, but first wo-men have to leave our patriarchal conditioning behind - leave the father's house and his rules! Embrace the Way of the Womb!
I never, in my personal life, have had an example of a black man protecting black women and children without his dick being involved. He has to be screwing the woman to offer her any protection. Or screwing one of her children... I know too many black girls now adult women who were the trade-off for the "protection" of a man in the home.
I have never in my life been protected by a black man. Nor defended by a black man when his brothers have assaulted me. No black man has even gotten me justice or restitution. No black man has presented himself as someone interested in Healing and restoring the Womb and Wombn. Oh they all SAY they love their sisters. They CLAIM they love black women. But they SHOUT OVER you with their defensiveness and "not all men" fuckery. They speak condescendingly to us "sorry YOU had such negative experiences with the men you associate with but I'm not him and I don't know anyone like that" is an example of this. This is male speak for blame the woman, silence the woman, shame the woman, verbally assault and shock the woman into a frenzy state so we can sit back blameless.
This is what men do. This is how men respond to women and even to womens pain. Which is why i advocate women not sharing their stories in places where men are allowed a voice. The male voice is perpetually one of abuse and blame and shame of the Feminine and female. It is the sole purpose of the Diminished Masculine; to keep the Divine Feminine small enough to fit into his patriarchal world. The Divine Feminine must be reduced to Wounded Feminine for this to occur and be possible. So black males wound black women to keep us small enough to fit in the grand scheme of this present global social structure of Male on top. With black males warring for space at the top or at least at the feet of white men.
This has colored my vision from infancy to present. As the only way i have ever experienced black men, the primary manifestation i have seen in black men is as violent, rapist abusers of black women and black girls. I have seen far more sadistic black men than "good black men" retorts can excuse away. And of course this is "my problem" alone and no black male is responsible to me to correct this or to heal it. They LOVE their sisters, they LOVE black women but they aren't responsible for "the males we 'choose' to associate with." As if 'choice' is a factor in the abuse of women and girls? As if i 'picked' the leering adult males when i was but a girl. As if men haven't been waging a war on women's RIGHT to a choice in her life since the inception of patriarchy. No black male owes his mothers, sisters, daughters the Divine Rite of Healing and Protection. Even in a thriving functioning patriarchal and patrifocal structure males are not accountable for the healing and restoration of women. To say otherwise is to "man bash" yet should not man be BASHED THE FUCK INTO PIECES for what he has done and allowed to occur?
I am openly acknowledging that the black males horrific rape and abuse of me in my lifetime has absolutely impaired my connection to the Dark Divine Masculine. And as i do yet another work alone as a Wombn and Feminine, i understand the resentments, pains, and even RAGE i will experience are valid. These energy emanations are necessary to release, to receive the bounty that is Mine.
I had to process my deep hatred of black men in specific; to process my deep love of my Internal Dark Masculine self. Lay blame where it rests and do not internalize it. We absolutely have a right to be angry and to hate the very face of the people who have harmed us and sought to destroy us.
This is what REAL HEALING looks like. If you cannot HEX you will never HEAL.
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Writing is my Joy and Pleasure. I've been writing creative pieces, analytic pieces and empirical pieces since I learned how! I use my pen and prose to expose people to things they either don't know or never thought of. I am political, analytic, critical all things that Virgo/Gemini is. The Logos is the Eros to me. <3