The Angry Deva's Blog
Veneration of the Dark Godis is Veneration of the Whole Wombn. Our Power is in Darkness, but first wo-men have to leave our patriarchal conditioning behind - leave the father's house and his rules! Embrace the Way of the Womb!
My husband grew up watching his mother struggle. He watched his father be insufficient. He watched his brother cry himself to sleep at night because he was hungry. It stuck with him. It made him the man he is today. He survived his childhood, his mother's foolish breeding choices and got to work.
He then put a plan in action to always be bringing in more money for his family. The wonderful thing is, even if we should part? He will continue to care for me, protect me and provide for me. I do as I please in this marriage, he still supports me and invests in me. He only asks that I not prevent him from providing for me and protecting me, no matter what happens. This is what a real masculine does. I never saw this level of investment or protection before in my life. The level of devotion.... I put him to the test. In the most ugly of ways. Still, he remains committed to being The Masculine Devotee of THIS Godis.
Admittedly? I grew up with yellow lunch slips. I grew up without enough food or clothes. I grew up with the struggle of an idiotic black mother who ALLOWED herself to be impregnated by a dysfunctional nothing ass black male, 4 times. Not only did she allow this She sought it out. He never had a choice. She told us this herself. She told me "you all were my choice! Your father never had a say."
I go in on bottom bytches because I was raised by one lol. I know exactly how you foolish women think. Keep this in mind when you try to tell me sob stories about your idiotic decisions with men. I've no empathy for you.
When I met my husband? I didn't know how to be taken care of. I didn't know how to get out of a man's way doing what he should do. I didn't know how to allow him to cherish and provide for me. I felt like I was going crazy. I really did, it was a crisis of identity. The wo-man my mother raise me to be vs the Godis I Am.
Mama lessons told me "don't ever rely on a man" because mama bred with addict peen. She didn't have to. She chose it, she had a proposal from a man who worked and owned land. She turned him down and bred my daddy sperm. I could have been borne to a Black Masculine who owned land and boats too.
Mama chose the drunkard who smoked crack and barely took care of his 6 children by his at the time wife. Mama Lessons nearly destroyed my life.
I had to invest in a different way of thinking and living. That wasn't easy either suga. It has taken many classes, personal development, mentorship and more. You won't get out of this just reading books. I keep telling you all that and women keep balking lol. Practical application has to happen.
In my class, Mama Lessons I will be discussing some crucial life lessons. How to win, despite your mamas lessons and teachings and how to ditch the negative programming you learned or picked up from your mother. This is a 3 module class covering 3 different areas we need to address for freedom and healing.
Sign up here: www.angrydevas.com/mama-lessons.html
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Writing is my Joy and Pleasure. I've been writing creative pieces, analytic pieces and empirical pieces since I learned how! I use my pen and prose to expose people to things they either don't know or never thought of. I am political, analytic, critical all things that Virgo/Gemini is. The Logos is the Eros to me. <3