Mama Lessons: Pussy Power

My FAVORITE auntie and I were out and about. We began talking men. She knows I hate this. Because well, she's always trying to get me to be more tolerant of males. Ugh I appreciate it. Lol but girl bye. 😂😂

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However, this time she said something that rang my bell. She took me back to when her babies were young. said, she was home, struggling with 3 babies under 6 and her husband was pulling 80 hour weeks. HOW he is alive still? Idk. But that Black Masculine nearly killed himself, to make sure his wife and his baby girls were safe. It is the reason I always loved Lucious n Cookie (totally the old version of them!) uncle Lucious still works his as off. The man is well into 60, their final two teens are almost all grown up. Aunt cookie is the old lady in the shoe. Lol had so many children, she didn't know what to do.

Anyway, she said she was upset he wasn't home helping her. She was stressed, her mama was a hot ass mess so unavailable to lend support. Things just were tough. She said she kept praying to God and asking God to send her someone she could encourage and be encouraged by. A sister in arms.

"And Baby, that is when I met your mom. See, your mamas problem is she could not live without a man. She didn't know any other life. I think it has something to do with your grandmother and grandfathers marriage and their home life. But your mama was adamant about a man in her life and her bed. No matter how or what your father did.

One day, I was at my mothers house complaining about my husband, and your father. My mother said to me, and she always had her way of dropping these bombs on you and walking off. But she says 'I might not bitch about a man who works all the time. At least he isn't here because he is working.' She walked out my kitchen with my baby and left me sitting there. I will never forget it. Your mama was my answered prayer. I tried to teach her, for your sake and your sisters sake. I did my best."

With tears streaming down my face, I said to my auntie "I know you did. And I know you're here to help me fully restore all those things mama tried to break in me."
She said, "no. You've done all that on your own. I'm just here to remind you, it's ok to need someone other than just you. Community is an important value you once held. Don't give it up because your family was a hot ass mess. Find your family, build your village!"

I absolutely do. And I test mf. You don't get to come into the village without being subjected to vigorous testing. I gotta make sure you aren't infected with that penis bug. You know the one, the sacrifice-it-all-for-some-peen, bug!

This convo did 3 things for me:

Thing 1: I released the unowned anger at my husband for working so much and being away so often. My fathers ass was disappeared on binges. Not making money but squandering it on addictions. Auntie Cookie and uncle Luscious healed that up good.

Thing 2: validated what I saw as a young girl. Mama never kept his ass around for us. It was for her.
Everyone saw it. It wasn't just need! These women LIE saying they don't want their kids to grow up without a father.

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